rolling my eyes at.. you!

My Heart.

2011-07-23T08:27:00.001+08:00

My heart has been bruised, hurt, battered, cracked, and torn apart in many small pieces.

It hurt so bad I thought I had died, and that my heart will never beat again.

Now that my heart has just managed a weak beat; will you cherish it, or would you, like many others, tear apart those old wounds and render my heart irreparable?

Omg.

2011-06-27T17:45:00.001+08:00

Super nua today. Dunch feel like working at all. :(

Missing you..

Secret.

2011-06-16T22:54:00.001+08:00

I can't sleep well if I don't hear your voice. I foresee the day I can't sleep well if I'm not in your arms is near...

Things that I'm missing right now.

2010-10-26T02:12:00.001+08:00

I miss turning to my right to warm flesh and a wonderful scent.

Not forgetting the feeling of being safe, loved, and bliss. All in one turn.

:(
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Bad day.

2010-08-06T15:34:00.001+08:00

Today is a Friday. Supposed to be a good day. Somehow for me, it's the opposite.

Early morning I remembered that my gym partner was not coming along with me. Again.

Now I'm late for gym but still have to go collect my shoes which I left at Idiot's house.

The arsehole doesn't seem to like to respond to me. I say me, cos I don't know if he replies to other pple, and I don't wish to speculate.

I sometimes hate bbm cos I can see that the person has read my msgs but can't be bothered to reply me. Sometimes I wish I'm so rich cos times like these I seriously feel like smashing my hp on the floor and stomping on it.

It's almost Friday night but I think I'm gonna be at home with my 15 year-old sister. Yes, I agree it's quite pathetic in a way that I almost feel sorry for myself.

And Yes. Arsehole and Idiot are the same person.

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Love my blog!

2010-07-14T21:10:00.001+08:00

Haha so random, I know. But everytime I look at my blog I get so happy.

The banner of onigiris damn cute!!!

Love love love ttm! ♥

Makes me happy! Shalala!!! ☺

♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺

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Bloody irritated ttm.

2010-07-11T03:51:00.001+08:00

I am super irritated. Why oh WHY some people never learn??? Why some people refused to be taught????????

I hate HATE HATE HATE HATE picking up after people. It's not my problem, has got nothing to do with me, and I am not involved!!!!!

Why must I pick up your pieces???? Literally fucking kio sai for you man!! Wtf!! Damn bloody piss me off!

If it's like occasionally I got nothing to say. But it's like bloody fucking all the time!!! I'm not bloody shit collector!!!! STOP ASKING ME TO DO STUFF!!! And STOP MAKING ME PICK UP AFTER YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Irritated to the point that I can't fall asleept. #*$+%@]!#€*£@& ttm!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's times like these when I wish I would hurry get a place of my own and stay alone.

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Scrambled eggs!

2010-07-09T16:50:00.000+08:00

Wanted to eat mackers-styled scrambled eggs and found a good recipe.

Taken from http://www.bbcgoodfood.com/recipes/1720/perfect-scrambled-eggs

Ingredients:
2 eggs
6 tbsp milk
Butter
Pinch of salt

1. Lightly whisk the eggs, cream and a pinch of salt together until all the ingredients are just combined and the mixture has one consistency.

2. Heat a small non-stick frying pan for a minute or so, then add the butter and let it melt. Don't allow the butter to brown or it will discolour the eggs. Pour in the egg mixture and let it sit, without stirring, for 20 seconds. Stir with a wooden spoon, lifting and folding it over from the bottom of the pan. Let it sit for another 10 seconds then stir and fold again.

3. Repeat until the eggs are softly set and slightly runny in places, then remove from the heat and leave for a few seconds to finish cooking. Give a final stir and serve the velvety scramble without delay.

Tips for getting the best results

Always use a non-stick pan with a wooden spoon for best results and easy cleaning. Don't over-stir - think of theseas folded eggs rather than scrambled. The eggs should have the texture of soft curds. It's best not to cook more than three portions in one go as you will overcrowd the pan and the eggs won't cook as well. For larger numbers, cook in two pans rather than one.

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Feeling abit emo..

2010-07-07T21:06:00.001+08:00

Sian. Feeling emo now. Wtf. Why always like that one. Always let me wait.

I always feel like I'm talking to myself. Always being ignored or put aside like you would put a can of beans aside for later use or smthing.

Response also must wait. Then what's the point of having a conversation? I might as well be talking to myself.

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother...

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Happy-ness.

2010-07-02T09:07:00.001+08:00

I was thinking. Small little things makes me feel at first irritated and annoyed; and after some time it manifests and I get unhappy.

Like a scale, I have learnt that the best way to ignore such annoyance would be to take into heart each little heart-warming, blissful moments in life.

Sleeping in till as late as you want without any disturbances, waking up to a sweet sms, or merely taking your time to do something and not rushing with the rest of the world.

Learn to smile :D :) ;D ;) . Learn to be grateful, gracious, and generous. Have happy thoughts, do good things, and say nice words to people around you.

People will feel better, and so will you. But of course, I just woke up. I'm trying to remind myself to do such. And telling myself to ignore the pushing crowd at bus and train stations.

Think happy, BE happy. ♥

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Unexpected-ness.

2010-05-27T15:24:00.001+08:00

Things are never quite what we expect, are they? But how does one always expect the unexpected?

That person would have to be on his toes all the time wouldn't he? Tensions arising.. Haiz.

Nowadays I'm usually mentally alert, but physically exhausted. These unexpected events better not appear ever so often.. I might not be able to take it.. Being mentally exhausted is, well, exhausting.

Boo. Shall try to push these nasty thoughts out of my head.

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2010-05-06T14:19:00.001+08:00

I'm not christian, but I believe the saying 'do unto others what you want others do unto you'.

I'm not saying I'm the best person on earth, but I TRY to make it a point to be at least civil.

I dunno if some pple out there even TRY to be considerate to other pple's feelings. I really think the entire world would become that much nicer if everyone tries.

I think it's karma that I have to live with someone who is not very considerate to others. I don't think he means it. It's just his character.

But it seriously bloody as hell irritates me!!

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Time for Change?

2010-05-03T03:57:00.001+08:00

There is a time when all of us feel tired, not the sleepy kind of tired. But when we get tired of what we are doing, when we get tired of our lives and need a change.

I feel like I am needing this change. Maybe I really do need it. Personally, I am trying to make a change in my life.

I try hard not to be affected by current events, but I find it increasingly difficult; especially as the days passes by. I really do not like what I am feeling, and sometimes I wonder what has happened to me.

Did something go wrong somewhere? Or have I already changed over the years without realising so?

I'm feeling really confused about some things, and some people whom I once thought I knew.. Kinda feel abit lost and sad as well..

Haiz...
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Sad Reality

2010-04-22T06:21:00.000+08:00

I just realised I absolutely love being a student. And I am really one of the rare ones amongst those I know who truly love my major.

BUT. I realised the major downside of being a student. Other than having to live on allowance, studying / mugging / projectwork / staying up late all causes one to grow FAT.

Tmd lor. Nb nb nb!!
I needa faster grad and go run!

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How you post it!

2010-04-14T01:15:00.011+08:00

How many types of Post-it® Brand sticky notes do you use?? I'm sure many stationery lovers out there have seen the various designs of the new Post-it® Super Sticky Notes range. I love it!

newer, brighter colours! we've come a long way from the typical pale yellow stickies!

these are great for sch work.. lines keep them neat! me likey!

these are a personal favourite of mine.. die-cut Post-it® Super Sticky Notes! great for leaving small shoutouts to family, and colourful enough for me to notice them!

Post-it® celebrates 30 years of colour and fun with a Post-it® “How You Use It” contest! simply go to the contest website here and upload a video or photo of how you use Post-it® Super Sticky Notes, and u can stand to win some fabulous prizes!!

as for me, this is how i use my Post-it® Super Sticky Notes!

nice right?? it says smile! :)

remember, use Post-it® Super Sticky Notes!

well, i'm a direction-idiot; therefore most times i need to rely on the map. BUT it is really very difficult to read the map and drive at the same time. so often, i write down all the directions needed on the sticky, like this!

then i paste them in the car, where i can see.. my very own Post-it® Brand GPS!

it says "i use Post-it® Super Sticky Notes to plan my entire route, so i can use when driving... my very own Post-it® Brand GPS!"

haha this is my contest photo!!

:( my blog got something wrong, all photos kena cut abit.. haha

Totally Random

2010-04-11T10:40:00.001+08:00

Staring into space after a delightful but heavy breakfast at Mac's. When I inevitably eat Mac's, I try not to think about the blog which keeps track of the happy meal that cannot decompose. -___-

On a lighter note, Mac's cinnamon melts are back! Yummers! Hahaha I realised that I'm totally blogging about Mac's. Sheesh! Greedy!

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Errr.

2010-04-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

Watching ch8's 从心开始.. The main guest today was sharing her story... Ok lah, quite cham.

Her first husband turned violent on her, thus she left her three young kids with her husband and got a divorce. Subsequently she was with three other men and had four other kids with them.

Seriously, she's a little silly. The second man she was with, and had 2 girls with, was actually married but she didn't know. The third was doing drugs, and the last was a good-for-nothing.

Wtf right! Not the men in her life, but HER!!! Seriously! Firstly, why be so bad in all your choices of men???? Don't even know whether they are married?? Sheesh!! Secondly, why rely on men???? To quote from 'The First Wives Club', it's disgraceful to rely on men for anything, it seems.

Maybe she needed emotional support, but still. And at least 1 kid with each guy???????? Actually really quite stupid lor!!!!!!

Abit abrupt, but I just needed to voice out my thoughts...

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Blessed.

2010-04-04T14:44:00.000+08:00

It's true.. Look at the less fortunate and you will see how truly blessed your life is. I do not belong to any particular religion, but at times I truly count my blessings.

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Tiger, Year.

2010-03-11T21:16:00.000+08:00

In the year of the tiger, seems like everyone wants to be Tiger. Woods, that is. Singapore truly has everything, clean, green, rich, and has her own Tiger Woods.

Better known as Jack Neo, our homegrown comedian-turned-director. Well, well, well. About 11 affairs, almost all of them are young girls. Wussup with men like him?? Mid-life crisis????

Granted, of course; I'm not his wife. I am not one to judge him. Like I said on my fb just after his affair was exposed; the act of a 50year-old getting it on with someone who is about the same age as his daughter is actually quite gross.

Contrary to some who may think I'm being judgemental, I'm not. I'm just criticising the act of having an affair with someone who is like his daughter. It is gross to me.

But what I'm about to say will prolly be judgemental. I saw in the papers that a male artiste under his mgmt team had publicly said that he is supporting Tiger Wannabe Neo because he is a very talented person.

Since when is talent, power, or riches the passport to acceptance even for his/her wrongdoings???? So if I am the person who created Singapore, does it mean I can get away scott-free if I kill someone????

Of course, this is a rather exaggerated example, but seriously! When I saw what he said I was quite shocked.

I think it's partly propaganda on the media's part to steer the public into sympathizing with Tiger Wannabe Neo.

But seriously, whatever. I'm not his wife, so I don't give shit whether she forgives him or not. But it is truly hypocritical of him to speak, and film of love and moral values when his is really warped.

Men suck big time.

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Life.

2010-03-08T11:39:00.001+08:00

Of course, one who is only a quarter of a century old is not yet qualified to talk about such a profound topic. Talking about life requires lots and lots of experiences.

Today, I have learnt many things. Of the most important, would be that people that I care for cannot be taken for as constants in my life. People, whom I would expect to look, feel, and be the same, no matter when and where I meet them.

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Wants.

2010-03-02T22:02:00.001+08:00

Today, someone asked me what I wanted for my birthday. In reality, I stopped celebrating my birthday after 21, so that I will remain forever 21. Hahaha!

Anyway, I did not answer him. Because there are so many things that I want in life. Many of which are material needs. Yes, it's true. I AM a material girl. (Cue song) haha.

I want a Chanel 2.55, gucci bag, a trip to Japan, hell, a trip around the world! I also want a hello kitty mahjong set, another camera (or 2), another blackberry, ipod touch, sk2 products, jewellery, and so so so So SO much more!!! How to finish naming all?!???!!!

Yet, I also do reality checks okay? Comparing myself to many, many of the unfortunate people out there; I am considered lucky. I have (more than) enough food to eat, air-con room, money (albeit it being little), and most importantly family and loved ones with me. Seriously, sometimes I am a really simple girl with even simpler needs. Heh.

BUT. Of cos most of the time I'm still the material girl lah. SO. I also need abit of material needs. Wahahahahahahahaa!!

Haiz. There are only 2 things I really, really, REALLY want right now. One of them seems really impossible now.. SIAN!!!

If my fairy godmother is out there, I WANNA STRIKE 4D N TOTO!!! Ok lah, simpler. I WANNA WIN 1MILLION SGD! See! So good! Only wanna win 1million dollars.

Wahahahahahahahahahahaaa!!!!

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Totally Random

2010-02-06T21:29:00.001+08:00

A journey in solitude makes me think of many many things. Suddenly, I thought about what might happen in March, a good month and a half away.

I hope that this year, whatever birthday wish I make will be granted. Which, come to think of it, how many wishes can I make? I can think of 2 ULTRA important ones, plus one other rather important wish.

If I can only have 1 wish granted, which would I pick? Hmm... Tough choice. Very, very tough. Hopefully by 9th March I'm left with only 1 ULTRA important wish.

Oh, where is the magic genie that's meant to grant ME 3 wishes???

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The One.

2010-02-04T16:45:00.001+08:00

Even Carrie in SATC wanted Big to tell her she's 'The One'. I'm sure many girls out there wanna know too.

Not only hear the man we love telling us we are 'The One', but also asking ourselves if this man is 'The One' for us.

In the beginning of my (current)relationship, I didn't ever ask myself this question for a long time. I started it with a 'trying' mindset, for I knew that being too serious in the beginning was never good.

Without expecting it to last, this relationship crossed the 4-year mark (in 2008), going on to 6-years this 2010. During that time I asked myself countless times if he was 'The One' for me. Obviously I found no answer, for I am no prophet.

I suppose we will all know when the journey ends.. Somehow after crossing the fifth-year mark, I gradually stopped asking these questions. The exact reason, I know not. Perhaps I'm getting old, perhaps I have committed myself, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps..

The only thing I know for certain is that right now, we are each other's "The One".. And I plan on letting this remain as a fact for as long as I can.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
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崇洋

2010-01-30T09:09:00.001+08:00

I don't understand why, till today, there are still so many people of whom think that the fair-skinned ang mohs are more superior and better than asians. There are countless stories out there where these supposedly superior ang mohs fake their credentials and go to places like China to 'teach' english, enjoy the high-flying lifestyle, and accept their fat cheques.

To this, my Chinese friend confirms it's true. Apparently the Chinese place more faith in schools with more ang mohs, regardless of their authenticity. Like, err... Ok.

Incidents like these are NOT only happening in China, fyi. It's like, almost everywhere lor. As long as is ang moh boss means good.

Wtf.

WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?!?!?!?!

Why do people still have such mindsets??? I believe in competency. Best man gets the job, regardless of skin colour. But seriously man, wtf.
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On the GO!

2010-01-26T18:21:00.000+08:00

Walking to the train station now.. Somehow my mind is boggled with quite afew things, hence my thoughts are pretty incoherent.

There are many things that puzzle me, and I guess in a way it's good cos it allows me to rack my brains and not let it become rusty. Haha

I guess this post is here as a mental note for me to prioritise all my "to-dos" and troubles..

Oops.. My sweaty man is here. ♥

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Test Pic

2010-01-20T15:44:00.000+08:00

Testing. Pic of my new bf.
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To keep as evidence

2010-01-20T00:01:00.000+08:00

Bf: I will willingly let you bully me forever..

Yay. I can feel the ♥!!!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Just reached home not too long ago from my 2nd grand-uncle's daughter's wedding dinner @ hilton hotel.

Hmm.. Food so-so only, too salty. X___X and on a tuesday night, it was expected that not everyone turned up.

The bride wore 2 gowns.. First one was ivory, tube, and had an ultra long train.. Lovely gown that had bling sewn on it.. 2nd gown was light pink, tube, had a corset feel on the top part cos the back was laces up with satin.. The entire dress had black flowers on some parts of the dress.. Lovely.

Oh. And the groom sang some jacky cheung song to the bride.. Sweet.

That's all I remember.. Other than the usual gossipy talk my mum had with her sisters... Hahaha!

Lovelovelovelovelove~!! ♥

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Actually...

2010-01-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

I secretly wish that noone is reading my blog already.. Hehe then I can input a lot of things inside which I normally won't.

Vell vell vell... I HAVE actually thought of opening another anonymous new blog, but am just simply too lazy to do that.. Anyway not as if my blog very famous.

In actual fact, I think very little people read it nowadays. Haha maybe liddat also good lah. Too bad blogger doesn't allow a change of blogname. Else I prolly would.

Dunno what I'm gonna change it too, though. I feel so uncreative nowadays. :(

Haha. My sister is complaining bout our maid now. So funny to see her so irritated. Woohoo! I'm evil.. So what!!!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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2nd try for Mail2blogger

2010-01-18T22:49:00.001+08:00

Okies. Trying this for the second time due to formatting probs.

♥ ♥

Testing testing 123456789

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Posting using mail2blogger for the 1st time!

2010-01-18T22:46:00.001+08:00

Hmmm. I'm really curious to see how this would turn out on my blog. Wheeee! Will try to edit this again.
Hahaha. Can't believe I'm trying this after using my bb for so long. Just pray noone guesses my secretword for my mail2blogger. Wahaha. ♥ ♥ ♥
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blackberry rocks!

2010-01-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

Testing testing 1 2 3.. From my blackberry!

wtf?!!

2009-11-09T11:42:00.003+08:00

was reading this book.. and the character two-timed her boyfriend.. gets me mad!!!

wtf is wrong with these people?!!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?! to me, someone qualifies as "two-timer" when they do these:

1. get together with 2 people at one same point of time 2. get together with someone just after u break up with the previous one 3. like someone else so much u are contemplating breaking up with current one

seriously, there's no difference with these 3 types of people. come on! u think after breaking up with ur current boyfriend, then getting together with your new boyfriend afew days after breaking up is nothing wrong???? WRONG!! THINK AGAIN!!!!

why do such people exist? why do they think in such a manner?? what is their logic when they do such things???

u damn desperate issit?? that guy/girl is THAT good issit??? ur current one is THAT bad issit????

if u think ur current relationship is THAT bad, u should end it. period. u should not even drag it for long. but before that, did u try to work things out???

noone should be unhappy in their relationship for so long! then go out and meet new people, and like another person!! then because u like this person, and he/she happens to like u too; break-up with ur current partner to get together with the new person!!

that SUCKS!! and is damn disgusting as a person!!

have u ever once stopped to think about the person u once loved??? THIS IS THE PERSON U ONCE THOUGHT U COULD SHARE YOUR LIFE WITH!!!!! he/she might be oblivious to such happenings and still think he/she has a very happy relationship.

but WHAM!

gets slapped in the face when u initiate a break-up and leaves his/her life completely. and then wonders for the rest of his/her life what actually went wrong; without closure of the relationship.

WHY?????

how can someone do this to the person who once used to be closest and dearest????

i simply don't understand.. but there's so much of this happening around in the real world!!!!!

view this blog on firefox!!!

2009-10-16T13:33:00.004+08:00

haha! in school now, oh gawd. this is how bored i am.

i realised that staying stagnant for too long really takes all form of motivation out. am so not motivated to do my dissertation. damn.

i have a creative suite for sale!!! unopened and unused!!!! anyone wants?? for sale around 107sgd.

speaking of selling stuff on this blog, i am damn freaking pissed. ordered slippers A YEAR AGO from this seller and till now she is not sending me my stuff. pissed.

Men's Pearls of Wisdom - damn funny!!!!

2009-08-26T17:40:00.006+08:00

received this while conducting occasional checks on my gmail account. from lindsey.

it is damn funny!!!!

should read it whenever i am in need of afew laughs.

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Men's Pearls of Wisdom

1. When I was born, I was given a choice - A big dick or a good memory. I don't remember, what I chose.

2. Your birth certificate is an apology letter from the condom factory.

3. A wife is a sex object. Every time you ask for sex, she objects.

4. Impotence: Nature's way of saying 'No hard feelings...'

5. There are only two four letter words that are offensive to men - 'don't' and 'stop', unless they are used together.

6. Panties: Not the best thing on earth, but next to the best thing on earth.

7. There are three stages of sex in a man's life: Tri Weekly, Try Weekly, and Try Weakly.

8. Virginity can be cured.

9. Virginity is not dignity, its lack of opportunity.

10. Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand.

11. I tried phone sex once, but the holes in the dialer were too small.

12. Marriage is the only way where you get to sleep with the enemy.

13. Q: What's an Australian kiss?

A: The same thing as a French kiss, only down under.

14. A couple just married were happy with the whole thing. He was happy with the Hole and she was happy with the Thing......

15. Q: What are the three biggest tragedies in a mans life?

A: Life sucks, job sucks, and the wife doesn't.

16. Q: Why do men find it difficult to make eye contact?

A: Breasts don't have eyes.

17. Despite the old saying, 'Don 't take your troubles to bed', many men still sleep with their wives!!

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enjoy!!!!

testimonial.

2009-08-24T09:45:00.003+08:00

Hi Angela,

This is for the student testimonial purpose, just help me to answer below questions and write some comments about the school ok?

How do you find the lecturers? Are they friendly and professional enough?

Do you think that you have gained quite some knowledge from school and it should be useful for your future life? Is the learning process (assignments, exams, presentations…) developed your personality and potential ability?

Do you like the school environment and the students around you? Do you appreciate the events and activities that we organized besides your study schedule?

What do you like best about our school? Why do you think we want to choose you as a testimonial student?

Finally, thank you very much for your time and have a nice day ahead! I will see you around. All the best!

Regards,

xxx xxxx

Senior Programme Consultant / Sales Department

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hmmmm. i have a meeting with this xxx later on.

how shall i go about answering her????

some teachers are crappy and all of us have no idea what they are talking about.

some of the students do not ought to be let into the bachelor programme because they still do not know the 4Ps well!

other than study schedule, those school activities which i attended was because it was graded.

i like best about the school are my friends.

i think you chose me as a testimonial student because i am NOT going to say any of the above and tell you something very politically correct.

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sheesh!

makes me mad.

2009-08-12T22:17:00.002+08:00

i flipped through my mum's copy of wanbao just now, and i saw a piece of news which made me rather disgusted.

i assume by now, everyone in singapore should know that the phrase '老牛吃嫩草' is talking about the local compere; now labeled as the 'old bull'. for those who do not understand chinese, '老牛吃嫩草' simply means an older person (usually a male) who like to date/be with a much younger partner.

according to the article, the old bull was very much married to his wife when he started an affair with his much younger PA. before the scandal/affair was exposed, he apparently lied to his wife that he was moving out temporarily to concentrate on his career. however before he left, he did leave with his wife an agreement which promised to take care of all her expenses, as well as the household.

she apparently thought he was trying to make her feel more secured, and the main reason behind it was because he really loved her so much. my goodness. imagine how she felt when she learnt of his (very publicized) affair. according to my mum, he retorted in defense of his affair that the bull has worked very hard in life, so what is wrong with eating tender grass. *rolls eyes*

anyway, apparently he promised his wife that he will pay for her credit card bills, cable tv bill, (wait lemme go get the papers) insurance fee, handphone/homephone bills, housing loan repayment, utilities bills, misc/maintenance fee, and on top of that a monthly allowance of 5k.

this issue actually died down for some time already, until very recently about afew days back. he apparently hasn't given his soon-to-be ex-wife her 5k alimony for quite a few months, and that was how the whole saga came about again. hah! loser.

anyway she apparently went to his friend's salon to have her hair done, and left the bill (in which she wrote that he had not given her alimony for afew months thus he will be paying for her haircut) for him to pay. hahaha!! not only his friends, even his friend's employees knew about it!!! super lose face!!!

his defense was that he really had no money to give her, and that he could barely fork out 2k per month to give to her, much less the promised 5k. he further complained about his (hefty) monthly expenses, and about the rental of a place to stay. something he left out was his newly purchased car (which SHE told the reporters), and get this, he doesn't even have a driving license!!!

ANYWAY. the point of this post is to tell everyone how disgusted i was, and still am, at such fuckers. in the beginning, he makes it all nice and rosy and appears gentlemanly, to make her agree to a divorce. after she agrees, he bails out on past promises and act poor. FUCK OFF!!!

got no license but go and buy car for fuck?? that's for the filthy rich to do!!! rich people buy cars and place it at home for pleasure viewing, not the poor!! so if he can do that, it must mean he is financially strong.

plus, who can he blame if he has to leave his own home to rent a place to stay??? nobody asked him to cheat on his wife. nobody forces a bull to eat grass lor. *rolls eyes* everyone has to be answerable for their actions, and consequences for each action taken may be far more severe than imaginable. this applies to almost anything, and very much so for fuckers like him.

damn disgusting can?!?!?!?!?! as disgusting as sg's 'modern monk'. argh! GROSS GROSS GROSS GROSS GROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

colours of life.

2009-08-12T03:38:00.003+08:00

i think people do change when they grow up. i have often brought myself back to yesteryears these days... and looking back, i realised that i was really quite naive. haha

eons ago when i was much, much younger; i used to see all things in black and white, refusing to believe in the grey. good people only do good deeds, bad people are those who are never kind to anyone... a + b must be = c... when we meet with situation X, we will do only Y... such idealistic thoughts we have when we were young, huh.

i wonder when did i stop believing in pure black and white, and realised that the world is full of mainly grey... 1 + 2 is no longer 3 but overcrowding, and there will always be the 'it depends' factor.

i wonder if growing up does this to people. adding in the greys... suddenly had the colours matched in my head... black, white, grey, and blue. which probably pretty much explains my everyday blues...

shit. i have no idea what i was blogging about.

nation's 44th.

2009-08-10T22:16:00.002+08:00

yesterday was Singapore's 44th birthday.

now, i am really not a big fan of this country.. but i must confess that i really enjoyed yesterday's NDP show. though i think it must have been about 100x nicer watching it live.

throughout the entire show, there were some really touching moments... *sniff* though by now i can't really remember already... comments made by some singaporeans that they filmed i think. but not the ones overseas.. those are quite sheesh. hahahaa

i think this year's show is the best so far, on the floating platform.. normally i watch the starting parade, then i skip the entire performance usually done by schools, and go back to the tv box for the fireworks. this year they really managed to capture my (and my family's) attention, from start till end.

super good job! :) proud to be a singaporean.. (back to cursing the erp the next day, friend says. hahahaa)

insomnia

2009-08-07T06:58:00.003+08:00

yet another sleepless night.

tried to sleep around 2:30am, tossed and turned and finally slept around 3plus.. woke up at around 4plus and was restless the entire time. which kinda explains why i'm awake before 7am, when my class starts at 9am.

bah!!!!!!

many weird dreams and scenarios floating around in my mind.. i wonder if this is my muse giving me creativity juices. hahahaha! doubt it.

i feel stretched to a certain limits when faced with school work. nothing seems to be going right, and i can't seem to churn out the required number of words for assignments. to some, this may seem normal.. but it says something huh, when i always exceed the maximum allocated word count.

i wonder if it's a mental block, hopefully temporary; or if it's more of a burn-out. unlike my many other fortunate fellow-schoolmates, i am not at liberty to do badly in my studies. *sigh* this is very much what we call in chinese, "tong(2) ren(2) bu(4) tong(2) ming(4)".

long weekend coming up very very soon... national day for singapore. to quote the chinese radio dj, "this is a very special year as it is Singapore's 44th birthday". hahahahahahah!

every year also special what!! next year it's going to be special as it is the nation's 45th birthday! lame ley.... when i hear someone say an occasion is very special, i'm anticipating the really special part. not such lame stuff.. such bs.

after the long weekend is assignment submission day. fark. i can't seem to type anything for the assignment.

and i prolly will end up sleeping in class later. omg.

I SIMPLY LUURRRVVEEE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(*rolls eyes*)

saddening

2009-07-27T00:39:00.004+08:00

people do change, don't they? it's sometimes quite sad to know that certain changes happen to people in a fairly short while... :(

but when i have this feeling that someone has changed, i will ask myself if I am the one that has changed and thus this feeling. this time, i am very sure that it is not me who has changed.

someone who used to be important and close, someone who shares thoughts and feelings.. someone whom i could rely on, someone who thought i was important too.

i forgot when it started... forgot when my thoughts, feelings, comments, and opinions did not matter anymore...

i feel... alone, somewhat. it's a sense of emptiness. a saddening feeling. i feel like someone who used to be able to hold a big crystal ball in her hands, but the ball broke; leaving me to hold on to whatever that's left...

there is more than one wall between us.. such an arduous task, even for the both of us.

such a sad thing to have happened........................ :(

beware! climbers!

2009-07-25T13:44:00.006+08:00

recent news got me to thinking about what an author used to term as 'climbers'. i am one who is rather disgusted by such people.

for those who had never read 'first wives club' by olivia goldsmith, the term 'climbers' were used to describe those who latch themselves on people of higher status and climb up the social ladder, so to speak.

recently there was an acquaintance whom dumped her boyfriend of several years to be with an older, much richer 'colleague'. what is it with girls nowadays? this is not a question of love, it is a question of material needs. this i know, for they have only known each other for less than 3 months.

and, sad to say, this is not the only story i have heard by far.

this, which led me to thinking; is this world becoming too materialistic? press news and entertainment have shifted focus to the rich and the wealthy; thus making an impression on young women that whatever your salary might be, a LV bag on your arm is a mere basic necessity.

i think i am completely lucky that my guy is although cute, has zero financial ability to speak of. hahaha.

Is there ever really nothing to hide?

2007-06-22T17:40:00.000+08:00

Have you ever met a person who says their conscience is clear? the sentence that often accompanies this would be 'I have nothing to hide'. But is there? Isn't there always a thing or a habit that we are ashamed of and try to hide it from prying eyes? Can there really be a person who says they have nothing to hide and then actually do it? But then again, how would we know?

It is not uncommon to not know everything about the person you are with when the relationship is just beginning to blossom. There is an air of excitement that rapidly builds up the connection between two people when thinking the other party is 'mysterious'. 'Mysterious', however, would definitely be not-so-mysterious after all; because all of us are innately curious bastards. We will try means and ways, even tactical approaches that deem fit the situation; just to pry more out of the other party we so much can't get enough of.

So supposing in a married couple, we actually see two people not knowing everything about each other, is that weird? Do they genuinely not want to know everything about the person they are married to, or do they have something to hide? Does not knowing everything about the person you are married to creates the 'mysterious' mood; and actually enables the air of curiousity to last, hopefully forever? I have heard of a couple who have been married for almost thirty years but still bathe and change separately. According to his wife, this creates the mysterious mood between them two, she is enable to give him surprises in the wardrobe area, and her husband cannot get enough of her even after three decades.

However, when one stresses the importance of honesty in a relationship, is it allowed when they hide certain things from each other? would that be called cheating? Or is this just called being selfish? Selfish that you just want to know everything about your partner to satisfy your own curiousity, but turn evasive and moody when asked about your own past and skeletons in the closet? When the relationship eventually sexual relationship, some may find it offensive that they can sacrifice their body to give pleasures that are desired, but still be shunned from questions they ask. Are certain things really off-limits? Is there always a taboo in everyone's life that is untouchable?

I find it intriguing how people can be really very close, but still keep certain things to themselves and away from those they claim are dear to the heart. So why do we do this? Is this how we are trained; to keep ourselves from feeling naked and to protect ourselves from riducule? I was wondering if Eve actually lied to Adam until I remembered she did eventually keep him away from her after consuming the forbidden fruit. Oh well. I really do suppose that our bff is really actually ourselves, and only we know what we have to hide, and flaunt.

those good old days.!

2006-08-30T11:57:00.000+08:00

am at work now. *ssshhhhhh..!* so obviously not supposed to be blogging man. such a dull day at work. bah.!

stupid IMF is causing so much trouble at work. even when it hasn't started yet. double bah.!

sian. wonder who will wanna go suntec during the imf period when it's so darn troublesome..

oh hungry, Hungry, HUNGRY.!

was just reminiscing about the good old days in school. *dreamy* and realised that i kinda miss school life. not school. not school work. school life. hey, there's a dfference ok.

to me, school life basically means time spent together hanging out with your school friends. haha. note the word school.. not from school not counted. hah!

primary/secondary/brief jc life aside, i miss waiting for beanie to get off class at the umbrella area; going to town to shop-till-we-drop with hui; slacking in the library with ah min drinking big cups of bubble tea; talking bout everything under-the-sun with bai and many, many, many, other good times we shared.

miss miss miss miss super-duper-ultra miss those good old days.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2006-08-26T19:51:00.000+08:00

these days am very much left alone with my thoughts. have alot of time to myself, that's why. so lonely. =[

friends have left to go perth to further their studies. life now is a mundane cycle which rotates around work, and the tv box. how pathetic.

therefore, have nothing to blog about now. don't think anyone would like to hear my not-too-interesting information about work, or the tv box.

bah. wat a boring life i lead.

p.s. peeps who actually read my blog, please read my previous blog entry and click on the link!!! (or here.) spent much time on it, therefore die die oso must see!!

Happy 21st!

2006-04-04T10:25:00.001+08:00

ok, this is definitely waaaaaay overdue.. but i wana post it nevertheless. (ya la, i'm lazy, can?)

as a continuation to the previous post, after dinner we met up with my sis and edwin, and we went over to my new place for mahjong till 12+ then cut cake. (jem said he bought cake, so he went to collect after dinner)

i wanted to test my luck also.. they always say birthday luck very good one. hah. apparently not for me. i lost lor!!! what kind of luck is that! ok la, but at 12am i won la. skeptical about the entire birthday luck thingy. bah. bruff me one wor..

anyway, the cake was super super pretty!!!!!

super pretty right???? it was just as delicious, i tell you! yummilicious!!!!

got many many strawberries on the cake.. yummmmmm..!

just some photos we took.. quite cute ba.. hee!

the cake was super delicious... hehe.! then after that they threw the stupid cream on me. so i threw back. wahahahahahaha! my poor sister ended up having to help me clean the place.. haha sorry baobs! muacks!

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i wrote that in april. i'm so sorry. today is 25th of august. anyway, i won't be blogging about my 21st anymore though there are many many more photos. please click here to see pics + details. *muacks*

Happy 21st!! (on 8th nite)

2006-03-17T01:41:00.001+08:00

uhaven't gotten around to blogging about my 21st cos was busy.. busy celebrating, that is. wahaha.

am admiring my pressies now. anyway, have many many photos to put up.. some are not so clear cos it's taken using my new hp.. bought a N70 for myself a day before my birthday.. a 21st birthday gift to myself.. hahahahaa.

went to sun with moon @wheelock on the 8th night.. jem called to reserve seats at 3pm therefore we had a very cozy booth.. (others can only sit at the common area and watch with envy.! muahhaha!) =]

the entire restaurant has soft lightings.. there were booths as well as tables (haha! we got a booth to ourselves!!) and around the booths were some transclusent curtain-thingys hanging around, giving a sort-of romantic atmosphere.. the fluffy cushions were a plus point, and i already liked the place before settling down. (our booth looks something like this.. but nicer.. this was the booth opposite ours. super nice rite???)

was hungry so got down to ordering their food.. a tad pricey, i would say. oh well. paying to sit in nice booth with cushions all. wad to do... bah.

wanted to order this appetizer.. 7 types of finger food on a satay stick.. but too expensive.. 17+++ man.. bo hua.

drinks were served first. i had guava tea, jem had peach tea. his peach tea was super pretty, with all the fruits in it!! mine had only some petals. =[ but both were pretty good.

another picture with his drink up close.. it actually looks prettier.. hehe! and it was yummilicious!! =]

then came the food.. jem ordered zaru soba which is cold noodles.. i've never fancied sobas. he seems to enjoy it though. i like how they present their food.. appeals to me.. don't you think the colour of the pickes are very nice? hehe! me likey.!! =]

so while watching him eat the soba with much relish, another dish came. his again. it's called salmon kamemeshi.. basically minipot rice with salmon and salmon roe.. they have this mini hourglass on top.. cute. =]

it looks like this when it came.. not very appealing rite.. but very amusing to see the hourglass on top of the minipot.. hehe! reminds me of saunas and big bathtubs in japan..

it looked so mysterious.. but it smelled really good.. looked as good when i opened for a teeny-weeny peek. hehe (actually looks much yummier.. but i think my photographic skills are limited. =[ sad.)

of course by now my food have to arrive. hungry ok. i ordered unagi don. ok yes yes, boring.. but i like!

looks good? it was really yummy! plump grains of rice and two fat pieces of unagi sitting on top of them.. ready to be eaten by me!

muahaha!

not too salty, but i kinda got full from it halfway through.

while i was eating, this very interesting dish was served. ebi and kaki gratin. prawns and oysters with citron-miso gratin. very huh? rite?

it's actually prawns and oysters (and potatoes as well) with broth, covered with cheese and made to bake for awhile. (my guess)

looks nice eh? it had salmon pieces in it too.. but a little salty. and the dish kept moving out of place whenever i was digging for the food. (yes, digging. it was stuck quite firmly to the bottom of the dish.)

the gratin was slightly too cheesy for me, so i ordered another item on the menu. ebiten roll. superb.! presentation is good, prawns were crispy, and the rice were not too sticky nor too sour, like how sushi from sushi bars tend to be very vinegar-ish and the rice always seem to be stuck on the prawn or cucumber or whatever. this was good.. six pieces only.. very little hor.. but i like.! me likey! =]

after all the food, i was bursting at the seams, but jem still wanted ice cream. i was thinking green tea.. but we never got to eating it in the end cos of mj. hahaha.! (actually after dinner still got jie mu, but pics i can't find yet, so next post then continue!)

L.O.V.E.!

2006-02-26T02:44:00.000+08:00

yippee.! i lurve mahjong!! hehe

yesterday played at jem's n edwin's place.. made too much noise. hah. *embarrassed*

last week at hui's with dolly n friend. hui's brother and aunt are good players man.. and they always sit at my 'shang jiao' then never give me anything to eat.. sad. =[ but damn fun. woohoo.! lurrrvvveeeee..!

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was driving on the road on friday and this bloody red nissan horned me. tmd. he was behind me and we were at this small road, waiting to turn left. bloody hell.. i couldn't even make a turn cos of the traffic and yet he still honked his horn. bastard sia. #$%^&*#$%^&#$%^

hate this kind of drivers.. grrrrrr. *angry*

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ceci is gonna start school soon.. so fast..!!! she went ninto pioneer.. so sian. 14 points still go pioneer.. wasted man.. smmore that school's no fun at all. went there for first three months. sucked. (ok la, so it didn't exactly sucked big time, but it wasn't all that great..)

promised to buy a bag for her.. wonder what kind of bag will she choose.. hmmmm. hope it isn't too expensive.! =/

gonna go bugis later to get her stuff.. and she needs to dye her hair black again.. haha!!

hope i can get myself smthing nice as well.. think i've been overspending.. got myself a zara top that, according to my sister, looks like 25 bucks but actually cost me $75. ex.. but me likey.! =]

yay.!! shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong.!!!!!!!

yippee.!! =]

p.s. this is published on march 05.. just a draft which i edited.. extensively. hehe.!

wishlist II

2006-02-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

UPDATED!!!

i have been told by many that my wishlist is depressing, and that no-one will get me anything cos it's too over. as in over-the-budget. so i have decided to update it and add more choices for you guys. =]

baobs told me to add something cheap like hershey's chocolate bar.. so am gonna do that!

now for the highly-anticipated UPDATED wishlist of mine! *drumrolls*

1. SAMSUNG D600C w/bluetooth printer

2. entire SK II LXP Skincare Range (there are 2 pages!! =/ look through all! )

3. Creme de La Mer (middle size. dunno how many ml)

4. Casio Exilim EX-600 w/1GB mmc (i think the orange one is nice.. silver too.. hmm.)

5. bling, bling and more bling from lee hwa, citigems or swarovski!! (this, this, this, or this looks pretty good.. me likey..!)

6. Muchas earring

7. i quite like the Anna Sui cosmetic range

8. dior stuff.. wallets, pouches, etc..

9. perfume (secret wish pls!) + 1 hershey's chocolate bar (see baobs!! i've added the chocolate bar!!)

number nine is perfume AND chocolate.. it comes together.. so there!! hehe!

=]

2006-02-21T20:00:00.000+08:00

today i wanted to buy a new hp.. the d600c.. but got no stock le.. wth. the worst is they only have stock for without contract.. super wth. can't have new hp.. sad.. =[

bought this cute 'zhao(1) cai(2) mao(1)' pouch today.. super cute..!! me likey!! =] now can put all my barang barang inside.. =]

just learnt that i could upload pics via blogger.. haha so suaku.. ignore the fax machine pls. the pouch is uber cute rite!! the red oval thing is supposed to be the japanese god which brings good luck.. and the small cat is just that i found it cute so i bought it and hung it with the pouch.. cute!!

yesterday went to swarovski.. saw quite afew necklaces and bracelets that i like.. ask my uncle to buy for me.. hahaha! (swarovski webbie is down so cannot put up the pics)

also got my first birthday present from mum yesterday.. yippee yay!! love her to bits.! she bought me a heart-shaped pendant + necklace.. hhehehee!! super duper likey!!!!!

none of the pics i took of the necklace are nice, and i dun wanna discredit the necklace so never put up.. but i fund a very similar pendant from tiffany & co.. it's the pendant minus the elaborate necklace and the diamond-studded clasp.. nice???

am pleased. =]

while listening to a (quite) boring CD

2006-02-17T22:43:00.000+08:00

i'm at the new place now, on my 'bed', which is in fact, merely a queen-sized mattress without the bed frame. listening to a quite boring cd by the infamous guo meimei 'wo ai ni, ai zhe ni, jiu xiang lao shu ai da mi..' -_-"

recently, weekends are usually spent at our new house. i'd like to call it our weekend retreat, but somehow the trouble gone through to reach our retreat seems to contradict the cheeriness and relax-iness associated with the words 'weekend retreat'. isn't it supposed to make you think of the nice palm trees, clear blue waters and sunny weather?

there are limited things to do at the new place. like all chalets (i like to think of it as our personal chalet), there is only one television set, no wireless connection and it's an inaccessible place. thank ~~god~~ my mum for the broadband.

i usually live through the weekend eating, swimming, or catching up on some reading. more often than not, though, there is a limit to how long one can do these things for.

therefore we bought a mahjong table, and weekends now are always full of mahjong, mahjong and more mahjong!! Yippee!!

if you guys would like to play mahjong during the weekends, come over and find me..!!!!

have to go now. time for another mahjong session.!

wishlist!

2006-02-16T21:13:00.000+08:00

i really really didn't want to write this post.

i'm being forced by a certain fair-skinned friend of mine, i swear!

hehe.!

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now for the highly-anticipated wishlist of mine! *drumrolls*

1. SAMSUNG D600C w/bluetooth printer

2. entire SK II LXP Skincare Range (there are 2 pages!! =/ look through all! )

3. Creme de La Mer (middle size. dunno how many ml)

4. Casio Exilim EX-600 w/1GB mmc (i think the orange one is nice.. silver too.. hmm.)

5. bling, bling and more bling from lee hwa, citigems or swarovski!!

6. Muchas earring

i really cannot think of anything else le.. but as lindsey says, i'm materialistic. (wth!!!) so i will like any branded and bling stuff... :(

but thinking abt it, i dun think i'll reject anything that's dior or lv. (quite like the dior jewelry..)wahaha!

Happy 21st, prettie min!!

2006-02-14T07:29:00.000+08:00

today is valentines day. exactly one year ago, i was still rushing my prototype. i remembered meeting bai and staying in school till like, very late. let's just say it was not a very good day. haha.

today also happens to be ah min's birthday..

HAPPY 21ST BABE!! *muacks muacks muacks*

several hours ago, i returned from xuemin's birthday chalet-party-thingy. super. tired, that is. not fun ah. wahahahahahahaha!! (kidding ah. later ah min kill me. hehe!!)

it was held at chevrons near IMM. naturally, i was lost, as usual. by the time i crawled there, rg was gone. never even wait for me. sad. =[ hmpf.

it was super crowded at her chalet. hordes of people there. saw many many many many many adidas paper bags. *jealous* think she is kinda too popular for her own good. heh.

but nevermind. i think i rather recieve many many lee hwa/citigems/swarovski paper bags for my birthday. hehehe!! *hint hint people!!*

i can just imagine people like lindsey saying stuff like 'paper bags only mah, oso never say must have bling inside!'

so rolls eyes. babe, it's understood-ed.

heh. ;p

(chinese) new year resolutions

2006-02-05T19:29:00.000+08:00

i think it's kinda late for my resolutions, but i suppose i can go according to the lunar new year... so, um, ya. heh.

1. i want to save as much money as possible!!

2. i vow to be nicer to all my friends. (non-friends: too bad.!! muahaha!)

actually, at this point i can't really think of any more resolutions... hmmmm.

3. i will try to brush up on my english.

4. i want to win every mahjong game i play!!!!

ok. that's it.

muahahahahaha.

m o n e y ?

2005-11-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

when all your friends are either working or studying, having holidays are not so fun after all.

that's when work starts getting more and more apealing.

that and the fact that you get paid.

money leh.

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after starting work and getting busy yourself, nothing seems fun anymore.

of course, the thought of money still make you slog your way through the one-foot high stack of files.

but your mind starts wandering and you find yourself wondering why you are doing whatever you're doing. (include shite job description.)

but, hey, money leh.. money..

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moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney!

what a love-hate relationship.

haiz.

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please do not tell me that you have a wonderful job and you love it because there's many challenges and interesting things to do every single day.

you bitch.

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e v o l v e d ?

2005-10-10T01:27:00.000+08:00

it is apparent that women are evolving.

we have come a long way, from being the woman behind our man, the submissive supporting actress in the relationship; to the all-new power woman, superwoman.

we no longer have to depend on a man for our survival, we can earn our keeps; and do just as well, if not better, than the men.

as our role evolve and change, we assume men's do as well.

but are they actually evolving?

is there really such a thing as the new man?

do men know that we no longer are the docile species they once knew?

do they really get it?

if they do, then why do some men still insist on chauvinism?

why do they still insist on being the superior gender, taking women for granted?

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i once heard something very true said in the sex and the city series.

"there are hundreds upon hundreds of articles written about the new man.

but does this new man really exist?

perhaps he is the old man, renamed and re-packaged, by some clever PR woman."

how aptly expressed.

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so, do such men exist?

can someone tell me?

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m e , m y s e l f , a n d , i ?

2005-10-03T01:04:00.000+08:00

something interesting i saw from LMD's post.

decided to do it cos'..

reason #1. am bored.

reason #2. haven't been blogging for a long time.

7 things that scare me:

1. horror movies

2. ghost stories

3. losing a loved one

4. not being able to love anybody

5. not being loved by anybody

6. being ugly

7. not having good friends around

7 things i like most:

1. singing

2. pretty objects (i say pretty objects cos' i love stuff that are pink, fluffy, princess-y, dreamy.. you get the picture.)

3. feeling good about myself

4. listen to genuine praises (about myself, of course.)

5. being able to play ~~difficult piano pieces~~ the piano

6. dreaming

7. being a drama-mama

7 random facts about me:

1. i loved the 2 weeks spent in cambodia helping the orphanage

2. i once hid in a corner and cried when my teacher gave me a C+ for my art piece in secondary school

3. i am a natural liar

4. i have a flair for arts and languages as opposed to the math and sciences

5. i find it very difficult to tell a person my innermost feelings, thoughts, and troubles (i write them down in a diary)

6. during my adolescence period, i felt miserable most of the time

7. i am a girly girl at heart *flutters long lashes* *giggles*

7 things i plan to do before i die:

1. be a singer

2. be an actress

3. travel around the world

4. find someone who will treat me like his princess

5. get married

6. get rich

7. or i can always get married to someone rich (hah!)

7 things i can do:

1. i can drive

2. i can sing

3. i can play the piano

4. i can bake

5. i can swim

6. i can cry as and when i like

7. i can stay at home the entire day without coming online for 5 consecutive days

7 things i cannot do:

1. i cannot play the guitar

2. i cannot see properly without my glasses and contact lens

3. i cannot seem to like studying

4. i cannot dance

5. i cannot seem to say comforting words to people when they are sad

6. i cannot seem to save money

7. i cannot play basketball (and volleyball) without the ball hitting me

7 things i say the most:

1. huh?

2. err..

3. haha!

4. rolls eyes!

5. simi dai?

6. watever~

7. hmmm..

h o l i d a y s !

2005-09-26T20:21:00.000+08:00

haven't been blogging for quite a while, now.

am afraid i'll get my cute perky lil' butt hauled up to court.

we don't want any of that now, do we?

i've kept many many drafts, though.

none of which i have posted up, obviously.

duh.

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holidays are getting to be quite a bore.

am forever torn between finding a job, earning some keeps, and slacking.

somehow the idea of slacking seems to appear more appealing than (ugh!) work.

what's more, i'm supposedly still having exams. (to my mum, that is.)

hah! thankfully, bai and gang have finished their exams as of today.

entertainment is on the way!

woohoo!!

isetan's private sale is around the corner as well.

double yay!!

oh.

did i mention how i'm enjoying my holidays?

;]

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s a d , s t o r y .

2005-08-31T23:53:00.000+08:00

It had been raining for more than a week.

It rained so much that it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up.

It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven.

She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm.

I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together.

She said, "I miss you."

I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home."

She did not open up her umbrella. I knew she wanted to share mine.

I said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go."

Unwillingly, she opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she had not eaten lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.

Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!"

Disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station, and she said she would take the train back home.

Maybe it was the rain. All the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited.

She looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I could understand how she must be feeling when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and yet I treat her in this unfeeling manner.

With her soft eyes staring at me, the guilt that had overcomed me wanted to let her stay for the night.

But reality struck again, and I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."

Back then, we were living in the same apartment building on the same floor. There were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping.

We were more like a family, and I did not know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of us four. Maybe it was during the last year of college and having lived together for two years, because we slowly developed deep feelings for each other.

After she graduated, she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her during the holidays, but never for long.

That was how we kept the treasured relationship.

We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle, walking weakly.

En route, she was too lost in her own thoughts that she often strayed off the road, nearly losing her life to the fast cars driving by on several occasions.

I wanted so much to just take her in my arms; but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach reminding me so, I did nothing.

On the way, we passed by the park where we used to frequent.

She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while, please. I promise I'll go home right after this."

With her begging, my cold heart softened; but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave, as she went to the big oak tree and she started looking for something.

I knew instantly she was looking for. She was looking for what we had wrote on that tree with a silver marker, just half a year ago.

If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever."

She was looking around for quite a while, and then came back slowly, tears streaking down her face.

She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."

I felt so sour inside. There was a stream of pain flowing right into my heart, the kind of excruciating pain that I have never felt in my entire life before.

But all I could do was pretend that I did not care, and said, "Can we go now?"

I opened up my big black umbrella. She was just standing there, reluctant to leave, hoping that there was still a chance.

She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change. Can't we start over?"

I did not say a word, just looked down, and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, neither of us speaking.

Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer. As it was found early, it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer.

I did not think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor until a month ago, when my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, did the nightmare awakened me again.

First I thought the pain would go away, but it intensified rapidly to the point where I could not take it any longer. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The scan showed that there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe.

I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end.

I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I made a decision to take my own life.

But I could not let anyone find out about my intention, especially Susan. Susan, the person I love most in this whole world, who still does not know the truth about my condition, and that I would be leaving her soon.

I did not have much time, because I would soon start to lose hair and she would find out eventually. Susan was still young, she should not have to go through all the pain.

So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart; but i believed it to be the fastest way to wipe out three years of feelings.

Now that my plan was close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more and this would all come to an end; that was what I had in mind.

The train had stopped running, so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, losing our last moments in silence.

I saw the taxi from far away, held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself."

She did not speak, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street.

Out in the rain, we became two single life forms. One red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I closed the gate that would separate me from her forever.

I stood by the car, staring in the dark window. I stared blankly at the first and also last love of my life, walking out of it forever.

The car started, driving into the street.

As I watched the vehicle grew smaller, I could hold the sorrow and twist in my heart no longer, and started waving my arms around frantically while chasing after the taxi; because I knew that this would be the last time where I would get to see her.

I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay; I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi soon disappeared into a corner.

Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, but not because of the rain.

I was cold inside.

She left, and I did not get any more of her phone calls even until today. I know she did not see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets.

But I am not Chris. I am that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words.

h a r s h !

2005-08-29T21:15:00.000+08:00

this is my second post of the day.

it's just a passing thought that i felt needed to be captured.

as most (updated) people would know, ah hao has been given a death sentence for the death of huang na.

yes, she died an early death. and yes, she died a horrible death.

and now, he has been sentenced to death.

some may think that he got what he deserved. but please allow me to disagree, for i feel that the sentence passed on him is too harsh.

yes, he did cause the death of a little girl, whether intentionally or otherwise. but i suppose everyone forgot something else. something important.

he gave himself up to the police.

without him, her death would be a mystery. the police might never ever catch him. he was already in Malaysia, and could just have escaped to god-knows-where.

but he chose to turn himself in to the police, to accept judiciary punishment.

i say, give him some credit.

the sentence passed on him is a death sentence. he would have to be hanged. that would be the end of his life, and his parents, wife and kid would never see him again.

he turned himself in to the police, and yet not an ounce of leniency was shown to him.

which offender will turn themselves in to the police in the future, when they know that the law would not take their act of self-repentence into consideration?

i know i would never.

what for?

oso have to die what.

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s p e c i a l , f r i e n d .

2005-08-29T10:56:00.000+08:00

i have a good friend, P, whom i have known P for quite a couple of years now.

over the years, we have built a pretty good relationship.

(i would like to think it's because we've weathered many storms together. haha!)

however.

P absolutely hates to go shopping with me, and when out, we only slack or eat.

P would rather stay at home and 'nua', and then go online most of the time.

i don't think P could ever survive without the internet.

(and handphone and computer and anything remotely IT-related.) i really think P is a geek.

although P is irritating sometimes, P is still my very good friend. (we irritate each other.)

and more importantly, most IT-related problems i have, i know i have a friend who is there to help me; although most of the time i can't contact P as handphone is forever on silent mode.

either that or P is deaf. (i'm more inclined to agree with the latter.) oh, did i mention that P often berates me for not having enough time to spend together?

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2 of my very close friends know P's real identity. (if they are reading, i would like to urge them not to reveal P's identity; let me have the honour of doing so please!)

would you guys like to guess? (there will be a prize for the winner!)

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e x p l o d e !

2005-08-17T17:49:00.000+08:00

i woke up today with a pounding head which threatened to explode any minute. (i wanted to bang against the wall and faint; so as not to feel the constant poundings.)

it still hurts.

my throat hurts when i swallow. (saliva, of course. when i swallow drinks and food it isn't all that painful, though.)

if feels like someone is pinching it, refusing to let it go.

i can still sing and hit the high notes though. (incidentally, i feel that i can sing very well, unlike my sister who croaks and loves to sing. =/ )

weird. (i'm a freak.)

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my (other) sister is going to watch dimsum doillies. (without me, by the way.)

i'm very upset. (and that freak of a headache just would not go away.)

i'm supposed to go to town later.

the thought of going to lively, bustling shopping centres brighten me slightly. (though the thought of crowded streets and shops, full of smelly people, puts me off.)

and the headache is still there. (argh!)

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i wonder if i should include (swear) words into my posts. (it's not very family friendly though.)

always wanted to, cause it's more me. (however, it looks really ugly, written/typed out.)

bleah. (head's still pounding, dammit!)

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i just remembered something.

he saw the previous post. (well, part of it anyway.)

not S, my boyfriend. ("we were both shy sia!")

i quickly moved the cursor to close the window. ("who's that guy?!")

the computer lagged. ("wah! what are you trying to hide from me?!")

damn.

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note to readers: author's head exploded. this is her sister here, who helped her press the 'publish post' button while cleaning up the bits of brain from the laptop.

j a c k p o t !

2005-08-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

have been meaning to blog..

really.

was just too busy with the law report..

(thinking about it now makes me wanna gag. bleah.)

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i read an article on the straits times yesterday.

there was this woman who won the jackpot.

big deal, some may say.

winning the equivalant of about SGD$234 million, i would definitely say it's a damn big deal.

$234 million leh!!!!!

million ok!!! not dollars!!

just gimme 10%!!

my sister and i were commenting on the jackpot thingy;

how we don't feel so bad when it's someone poor who won, instead of some already-super-rich person.

(she has 6 kids and is quite poor, btw.)

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heh.

how come this sort of thing don't happen to me huh?

hmmmmmmm.

imagine.

$200 million in your account..

mmmmmm...

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note to readers: at this point, author was drooling waay too much about how to spend $200 milllion, the keyboards got flooded (with that much drool, it was hard not to flood it) ; and had to press "publish post" to avoid loss of post.

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2005-07-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

it flowed from somewhere mysterious.

it was splashing against the now-red rim.

it threatened to be released.

once it flowed, it somehow could not stop.

not even the big white blanket could stem the flow.

it streamed across the blanket, and streamed across the lines.

lines that formed with age.

the tears from an old man's eyes.

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s o b z .

2005-07-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

i had to tear myself away from the book for days cos of common test.

i finally finished it today.

(or yesterday, to be more precise; since it's tecnically a new day now.)

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i'm very upset.

i had tears brimming in my eyes and they threatened to fall.

i think i would've bawled like a baby if it were not for the fact that i was not, alone.

so sad..!!!!!

*sobz*

how can she make Dumbledore die?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!!!

he got murdered, no less.

(by whom, i think i should not say; in case anyone is reading the book now..)

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i wonder if he would still be able to talk in portraits.

but i suppose not.

don't think that will happen..

hmmmmm.

avada kedavra....

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note from author: sorry ah.. nothing to write about now cos im basically just feeling sad that rowling made dumbledore die. just thinking about it makes me... hmpf. =[

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F o r e v e r L o v e

2005-07-17T23:46:00.000+08:00

FOREVER LOVE

爱你不是因为你的美而已我越来越爱你每个眼神触动我的心因为你让我看见 Forever 才了解自己未来这些日子要好好珍惜

爱我有些痛苦有些不公平如果真的爱我不是理所当然的决定感到你的呼吸在我耳边像微风神奇温柔的安抚我的不安定所以我~要每天研究你的笑容 Ooh~ 多么自然

Forever Love~ Forever Love~ 我只想用我这一辈子去爱你从今以后你会是所有幸福的理由

爱情是场最美最远的旅行沿途雨季泥泞偶尔阻碍我们的前进感到你的体温在我怀里像阳光和煦巧妙的融化我的不安定不可思议证明我爱你的理由 Ooh~ 多么自然

Forever Love~ Forever Love~ 我只想用我这一辈子去爱你从今以后你会是所有幸福的理由

你感动的眼睛我沉默的声音仿佛就是最好的证明就让我在说一次 I love you oh~ 直到永远

Forever Love~ Forever Love~ 我只想用我这一辈子去爱你从今以后你会是所有幸福的理由

Forever Love~ Forever Love~ Forever Love~

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this song is super nice!!

just looking at the lyrics doesn't really do much justice to the song, i swear.

(go download!!!)

but i just wanna put this up, all the same.

heh.

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p l a y !

2005-07-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

lovely sun, warm smooth sand, heaps of fishes and the clear, blue ocean!

that's what you'll get if you go to redang.

at least that was what i experienced.

simply luuurrrrvveeellyyyy!

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had a great time there..

am planning to go again.

so..

redang anyone?

;]

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anyway.

i was just thinking how i admire people who actually put their innermost feelings, as well as intimate happenings around them, all in their blog.

as hard as i want to, i just can't.

i just can't accept the fact that someone who doesn't know me at all, is able to read my private thoughts, and share my innermost feelings.

i also can't accept the fact that people who do know me, know so much about me.

the next time they see me, they are looking as if they can see right through my soul.

i will feel..

naked.

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i guess that's why even though i have a blog, i keep a diary as well.

suppose there are some things too intimate to share.

and don't think it the naughty way.

heh.

;]

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t r a i n ! ! !

2005-06-28T18:49:00.000+08:00

i can never phantom why there is only one single pharmacist working in pharmacies.

can't they bloody train their staff?!!

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i just came back from holland village.

the reason for my going there is to purchase some medicine at the guardian.

from the pharmacist.

i came back empty handed.

but full of irritation.

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the pharmacist was 'out and would be back at seven.' so why don't i 'wait for a while more when the pharmacist returns?'

because i hate to waste my bloody coupon, that's why!

and of course, 'only pharmacists are allowed to prescribe the medicine to you.'

yes i'm sure.

(rolls eyes till they drop out!)

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when the pharmacist is there, all i have to do is ask the same question as i did pose to the staff there.

she does not say anything.

they merely hand me the medicine i want.

she can be frankenstein's bride for all i care.

i just want my bloody medicine!

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this is not the first time.

i remember once when i was dying of a running nose.

only clarinase works for me as i think am immune to panadol due to long-term abuse of the drug.

anyway, it so happens to be a prescribed drug and the bloody pharmacist was out.

as usual.

i had to sneeze and literally die just to wait for the said pharmacist to come back.

all she did was to hand me the medicine that i wanted.

@!#!$%!^&*!@!#$%!^&!

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this time i wanted to purchase medicine for my (impending) rash.

now.

i have to take this prescribed medicine very regularly because am very prone to getting horrible looking, swollen, rashes all over my body.

and not mention very itchy rashes.

very itchy rashes.

so, if i happened to have this horrible rashes; and as bad luck would have it, the medicine ran out.

would i have to wait at the counter while looking like a frankenstein's bride for the pharmacist to come back to prescribe the medicine to me??

what if it was a more serious case???

does the person still have to wait for the pharmacist to come back??!

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argh!

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r a m b l i n g s .

2005-06-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

haven't been online for a long time now.

that's the reason why this blog can be sent to the museum soon.

seriously dunno wad to blog about.

wonder who reads my blog.

will you guys leave your names?

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what is the most important thing in life?

often wonder to myself.

is it money?

is it love?

is it family?

is it friends?

or is it a career? what is the most important thing in your lives?

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dunno if it sounds materialistic, but i have expensive taste, and much money is needed to, err, support the unique things that i would like to have.

but then again, who doesn't like pretty things and have the money to be able to buy them, right?

(argh. dunno wad am talking abt.)

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having a whirlwind of thoughts in my head now.

just rambling away here.

think am a little crazy nowadays.

bleah.

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wonder if i should close this blog.

hmmm.

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l o v e ?

2005-06-07T02:39:00.000+08:00

marriage, cohabitation, promiscuities?

which are the choices people are making nowadays?

and what choice will you make?

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the less desirable ones first.

really can't decide which i deplore more; cohabitation or promiscuities.

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promiscuities.

need we say more?

good social life, different sexual partners, freedom and unrestricted life.

but.

emotionally lonely and empty (maybe).

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cohabitation?

some might think cohabitation is good because it gives a good feel of what marriage life is about.

suppose it depends and varies for individuals.

it's nothing taxing on the guy and he doesn't lose out much; but what about the woman?

if the 'pre-marriage plan' (as some like to call it) doesn't work out, then what?

still feel that it's definitely not exactly the same if married.

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marriage.

hmmm.

would have to say marriage is probably to tie two people down; to give each other assurance that they have responsibility for each other and their future life together.

most sane people won't give birth to, like, five kids, for a man whom she is not married to.

he does not have responsibility to look after her and the kids.

if he finds another who is more attractive, then what will happen to the woman?

therefore, am being very practical and down-to-earth, and somewhat cruel (to my own world of fantasies and sugar-coated marshmallows); to say that the marriage certificate is indeed for the sake of assurance.

(not to forget also to threaten the man with legal lawsuit should the marriage fail).

well, suppose that all truth hurts.

(it's true! my world of fantasies filled with rainbows and cotton candy floss is now trying to erase that piece of hard news by painting it over with chocolate paint.. mmm..yummy..!)

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so i can always say (and think) that marriage is about faith and growing old together.

oh, and there's always the good old thing that everyone needs.

love.

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H a p p i l y E v e r A f t e r ?

2005-06-04T17:35:00.000+08:00

been egged to blog more.

suppose so, else blog would be sent to museum soon.

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why are relationships so complex and difficult to understand?

thought that every (stable) relationship should be full of love, and will end up with a happily ever after..

did fairytales lie when they told about endless happily-ever-afters?

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is it so hard to find someone you love, and have that person love you back?

is it that in every relationship, things will change and will not be like what they were in the past?

why is it that a relationship will get stagnant after some time, or have only one party maintaining the relationship?

when two very good friends get together and then break up, why is it that sometimes they don't remain friends anymore?

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well, these things aren't happening to me, obviously.

just some thoughts that ran through my mind.

but it's really true that relationships get stagnant after awhile, don't they?

used to think that couple life was boring because there's not much to do in singapore but eat, watch movies, and eat (sommemore).

but then again, suppose that it takes effort to inject life and spice up the relationship.

like going on short trips, going to pulau ubin to cycle, go swimming together, or just hanging out under the canopy of stars.

hmmmm.

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what should we really be looking out for in a partner at our age?

looks, age difference, maturity level, financial standings, a forseeable future together?

really don't know.

and, does it really matter?

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never thought of relationships as that complicating.

always thought it was a simple case of two people loving each other.

of course, the happily ever after never hurts.

;]

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s t a g n a n t ?

2005-05-29T13:03:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to feel that my blog is growing incessantly stagnant.

not a very good thing, aye?

but i suppose it has something to do with my incessant holiday-ings as well.

hah!

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i remembered something (bad) that happened in hong kong which i forgot to blog about.

just thinking of it (again) disgusts me.

bleah.

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when we went to ocean park, there were alot of other tourists as well.

alot of them were mainly from the mainland china.

(please don't ask me how i know they are from mainland china.)

they are quite gross.

they spit everywhere, cut our queue like they own the world, and they fart everywhere.

(very gross right??)

i remembered walking behind a bunch of them (huihui was beside me) and suddenly the guy infront of us just farted.

he farted in an increasing series of short to long to longer farts.

obviously we didn't wait.

we ran.

i was truly disgusted.

hui merely found it funny.

i really think they are the epitome of revolting asians.

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aight.

enough of detestable people.

i just came back from genting highlands.

the weather there was damn shiok!!

i was actually sweating when i came back to sg.

boring, hot, little singapore.

bleah.

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think i shall go there again, but i suppose i will have to wait till i'm 21 so i can go to the casinos.

heh.

well, i have to prepare myself for 2009 in singapore, you know?

hah!

miss the cooooooollllll weather there..

aaahhhhhh....

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H o t S t u f f x !

2005-05-23T12:25:00.000+08:00

whoopie, i'm ba-ack!!

Hong Kong was fantabulous!

i'm sure huihui and baobs will agree with me.

although we did have to walk for a minimum of 12 hours per day.

(that's how we were over there; non-stop shopping.)

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we mainly went shopping around in HKG.

oh, and ocean park was fine, too.

although we still had to walk pretty much while over there.

bleah.

but i suppose we fit into our original plan of 'chi dong xi, mai dong xi, chi done xi, mai dong xi' or, eat and shop, eat and shop.

the food's always good.

we could never find something that was awful over there.

but stuffs over there are pretty expensive, if u ask me.

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oh, and one of my impressions of HKG is smoke, smoke and more smoke.

people there literally are chimneys.

they smoke everywhere.

and when i say everywhere, it's really everywhere.

even in air-conditioned restaurants.

it was almost unbearable.

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we met our friends there, and my sis bumped into her school friend over there as well.

talk about a small world.

anyway, it was a pleasure meeting you guys; chen en, ruiguo and joel.

(i was quite tempted to type out joel's full name here.)

the six of us went clubbing at their local night scene, lan kwai fong.

it's wasn't all that great, after all.

but it was fun, nevertheless.

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we were there for 5 days, and 4 nights.

but somehow it wasn't enough.

i suppose like a holiday trips, i was a little reluctant to come back to singapore.

as huihui puts it, welcome back to boring singapore.

how apt.

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i have a feeling we'll go back to beautiful hong kong soon.

like their slogan; love it, live it!

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and last but not least.

to baobs and huihui.

*muacks muacks muacks!!*

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t r u s t .

2005-05-11T01:30:00.000+08:00

trust.

a mere 5-letter word, but oh-so-very important in our very lives.

like any other matters and values, trust varies from different individuals.

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in any relationship, i believe that the basis have to be built on trust.

can you ever get into a relationship with someone you don't even trust?

no trust, no love.

you think?

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in friendships as well.

you will have to trust your very best friend, to be able tell him or her your deepest, darkest secrets, won't you?

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i also believe that trust is earned.

even if it is granted to you no strings attached, you will have to prove worthy of the trust given.

once breached, it's pretty hard to have the person trust and look at you the same way ever, won't it?

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i won't say the same for everyone.

every individual is entitled to his/her own opinion and belief.

for some, trust is easily earned, and can also be built on a rocky foundation.

for others, trust is the solid foundation that the relationship is built on.

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someone once told me (something like that):

trust is like a shattered mirror; no matter how hard you try to fix it back, cracks will still be evident.

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p a s s e d ?

2005-05-08T18:38:00.000+08:00

have you ever had the feeling of being 'passed' around? or do you know of people who are sort of being 'passed' around? what do i mean by 'passed' around? ------------------------------------------------------------ hmmm. girl has a bf, AAA, now. she knows all his friends. after she breaks up with AAA, she goes with BBB, who happens to be AAA's friend, and also liked her for quite some time. the cycle continues until she 'finishes' every of AAA's friend. it's a high possibility that she might end up permanently with one of them. ------------------------------------------------------------ how can some girls do that, i wonder. everytime you go out with you boyfriend and his friends, you inevitably meet an ex of yours. isn't it awkward? i always thought it would be awkward. can you imagine if in the above scenario, at the table, every single one of them was your boyfriend once, and they all know what you're like, how you kiss and all. eeew. *shudders at thought* ------------------------------------------------------------ also, there are some cases when guy like girl, but he knows his good friend likes her as well. therefore, he tries to 'give her up' to him, knowing fully well that the girl will not like his friend and sort of likes him. well, in this cases, i daresay that guys are in the wrong. a relationship is about 2 people, isn't it? and girls are not presents meant to be passed around. ------------------------------------------------------------ and, speaking of guys. how come they always seem to have the same taste and like the same girls? if supposedly his best friend has a pretty girlfriend, and the moment he saw her, he liked her as well. it's true he is not at fault to like her when he saw her, supposedly not knowing she is his friend's girlfriend at that time, of course. but after knowing she is attached to your good friend and yet still liking her is something wrong, isn't it? isn't this lusting after your best friend's girlfriend, and something that should not ought to be thought of, much less done. hmmmmmmm. what do you think? can someone tell me? ------------------------------------------------------------

m o r e ! c o m m e n t s .

2005-05-05T08:05:00.000+08:00

excerpt from min's tagboard: Libin: Nowaday girls too choosy....and dunno wat they looking for. Girls are Complex and Complicated... reego: haha.. not really. thats wat we guys think.. some gals are just looking for something very simple. yet often. we found it complicated. ya. Libin: Haha maybe ... but i have yet to find a simple girl. Girls's Yes = Yes/No Girls' No = No / Yes ( hard sia testing my patient ) lol reego: well. perhaps all gals seek for simplicity. just that you think they arent. well.. hmmmm. errrr. ok. ------------------------------------------------------------ are we girls choosy? perhaps as compared to before, our expectations become higher. it might also be because we girls happen to be smarter and know our rights. women are no longer merely housewives, and men are no longer the sole bread-winners that women have to depend on. well, basically we're just getting smarter and smarter by the day, and men, well, are still men. ------------------------------------------------------------ men. they have huge egos. and when i say huge, they're HUGE. (they sometimes have trouble squeezing out of the door due to their swollen heads and egos.) they think about sex all the time. ok, fine. 80% of the time. (proven ok.. read in some magazine.) they think that everything leads to sex. (see what i mean?) hah! ------------------------------------------------------------ ok fine. i'm not dissing guys. i like guys. but it's true that ~~they all~~ some of them have big egos and think about sex ~~all~~ most of the time. =/ it's innate. just like how women are innately smart and charming! hah! ------------------------------------------------------------ i think alot of guys are gonna kill me when i post this up, but, what the hell. controversies are good. ;P ------------------------------------------------------------

y u c k s !

2005-04-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

hmmm. i just read the newpaper my uncle passed me. as well as watched the 9pm show. one conclusion: guys are very bastard-y!! ------------------------------------------------------------ why do i say so? for those who have not read the newpaper, there is this husband who abused his wife by not only kicking and hitting her, but also using a sharp needle to tattoo vulgarities on her body and face. and, yes. i did say face. when i read it i was like !@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@@#$%^!!!!!!!!!!! how is she going to face the world?!!!! (she has to wear a mask everytime she goes out.) it's just sickening. personally, i feel that guys like him should ought to just die and stop being the bane of the world. what a scum. ------------------------------------------------------------ wah, damn buay tahan man. after reading the post i had to watch the show where he jian yi si qian and wants to dump his current girlfriend. of course, bring the arse he is, he just can't seem to break up with his current girlfriend, and, whoopie, decides to just as well two-time her. but that's not all. she had a miscarriage and landed herself in hospital, yet he had the audacity to say that he is very tired and wants to go home; after a mere 5 minutes in her ward. WAH!!! can't stand such men. ugh! ------------------------------------------------------------ why? why are guys like that?? can someone tell me???? ------------------------------------------------------------

s i g n u p !

2005-04-26T07:36:00.000+08:00

i have ran out of things to blog about. because my life is now so, damn, dull. and i don't have a colourful sex life like min. hell, i don't even have a sex life. therefore i have to resort to blog about my not having anything to blog about. hah! ------------------------------------------------------------ min told me to blog happy posts. so here goes. yay! whoopie!! wooohoooo!!! but what on earth am i cheering for, i really don't know. hmmmm. maybe it's because we are going to have a wonderful IR. *rolls eyes* ------------------------------------------------------------ top 5 things i wanna do right now: (pai ming bu fen xian hou!) 1. swim and tan. 2. shopping!! (paid for by someone else, duh!) 3. go ktv! 4. play mahjong! 5. go on holidaySSS!! who wants to accompany me (and pay for me) ???? please sign up asap!! ------------------------------------------------------------

c u t t i n g . w o r d s .

2005-04-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

" i don't love you anymore, Mum! " the ignorant little girl tells her mum in a fit of pique, and storms off. her mother can only stare dumbly, at a loss for words, as she watches her daughter leave. tears. ------------------------------------------------------------ " i have never loved you! " she tells him. he recoils in shock and horror, as if struck by a poisonous snake. eyes widened. just like a slap across the face. ------------------------------------------------------------ " amongst all, you're the one i dislike the most! " he shouts at his little girl. she is too young to recognise why her heart, at that moment, felt like someone had stabbed at it repeatedly with a knife. she didn't understand why her dad had said that. confused. and hurt. definitely hurt. ------------------------------------------------------------

g r o s s ! !

2005-04-22T13:37:00.000+08:00

argh. i'm super bored. somehow i kinda hate this hols. gross. ------------------------------------------------------------ my grades suck. so embarrassing. so damn bloody many Bs. and no AD. gross. ------------------------------------------------------------ going to go hong kong soon. somehow being thrilled about going there is one thing. sponsorship for the trip is another. dun even know if i'm getting and cash for helping my mum out. haiz. gross. ------------------------------------------------------------ and i'm peeling quite badly on my FACE after merely 2 consecutive days of swimming. (am traumatized. how to 'jian ren?!!?!!') and the skin on my back hurts as well. hope it doesn't peel, like my FACE. super duper gross.!!! ------------------------------------------------------------

h a b i t ?

2005-04-17T02:37:00.000+08:00

in the pre-'we' stage. flowers, presents, sms-es, late night calls. that's what she receives from him. that's to catch her attention and to let her know how much he likes her. to make her fall for him. ------------------------------------------------------ in the initial 'we' stage. more sms-es, as well as hours-long late night calls. the i miss yous and the let's meet up (again). to let her know that he really loves her. and also to make her fall even deeper for him. ------------------------------------------------------ in the later part of the 'we' stage. more sms-es, as well as more (missed) calls. the i miss yous and the let's meet ups. from her this time round. he will generally take her for granted, as she does more and more things for the person she loves. as days passed, 'we' have become a habit. ------------------------------------------------------

b u g g e d !

2005-04-14T18:42:00.000+08:00

i've been bugged to blog. alot. well, i must admit i do not know what to blog about. and recently i hate to look at the papers. reports on the opening of a casino in singapore are aplenty. but all i see is bloody propaganda bullshit. so annoyed. argh! ------------------------------------------------------ enough of the casino BS. i found out that blogger has finally responded to many many many complaints from their users. i saw a link which says "recover post" when i wanted to create a new post just now. like, finally. god knows how many posts i have lost and have to waste time re-typing just because their site is merely super-duper-duper inefficient. i once lost a 7000 word post and had to retype it. just thinking about it makes me angry. bleah. ------------------------------------------------------ anyway, my life is not that perfect after the exams. life's such a big contradiction. i couldn't wait for the exams to end, but now i just hate the holidays. simply because i have nothing better to do. i hate my life. well, for now anyway. but i suppose it will turn out to be good once somebody offers to pay for my exploring the grounds outside of singapore. any kind sponsors? =] ------------------------------------------------------ p.s. i'll be really grateful and i'll blog more often! Promise!!

s w i n g !

2005-04-10T14:48:00.000+08:00

when i dictionary.com for swingers: Slang. a. A person who actively seeks excitement and moves with the latest trends. b. A person who engages freely in promiscuous sex. c. A member of a couple, especially a married couple, who exchanges sexual partners. ------------------------------------------------------ in weekend today, a "Swing Singapore?" article written by Rahul Venkit greeted me a very good morning and while i was eating my breakfast and reading the article, my eyebrows raised more than just a few times. "Behind the closed doors of the rising number of swingers' clubs in Singapore lies a brow-raising tale of sexual promiscuity, replete with partner swapping, group sex and kinky fantasies." wahhhhhhhhhh. i must admit i never knew. ignorant, yes. naive? definitely. so sue me. ------------------------------------------------------ this article actually reminded me of another article i read in a women's magazine once. it was about some orgy parties she attended and was quite hooked onto it. hmmmmmmmmm. ------------------------------------------------------ well, i suppose the rising of such parties actually also contribute to the rising numbers of AIDS patients, don't they? it's not only through the homosexuals that people get the disease, which the top people tried to incline us to think that way. i thought the government should already know that by now. ( well i suppose it's all propaganda, eh? ) ------------------------------------------------------ well, back to the swingers' parties. they are very well-organised, i must say. they have rules, interviews, as well as zones in the parties. hmmm.. zones. sounds like NP during the sars period, only that in the parties, they have "clothes optional" and "clothes disallowed" zones. clothes disallowed siboh!!!! haha! so rolls eyes!!! ------------------------------------------------------ the parties are, however, not illegal. the practices are merely scandalous. riiiigggghhhhht. definitely scandalous. ------------------------------------------------------ "according to sources, couples and single girls also receive unsolicited invitations to join swingers' parties based on recommendations from current members." oookay. not like i'm dying to go to one anytime soon. so. swingers' parties, anyone? ;) ------------------------------------------------------

b a d .

2005-04-08T01:15:00.000+08:00

today a 15 year-old beat-up red-coloured nissan went mad. or rather, the driver went mad. he obviously thought his rotting-tomato-coloured nissan was a subaru or WRX. he was behind me in the extreme right lane, and just as i signalled and was about to change to the middle lane, he suddenly decided to speed up, change lane (without signalling, of course) and made me swerve sharply back to my lane. (!#%$&*#*) and he had the nerve to turn back and stare at me. (!#%&*&#$%&*&^!#$%&*^#%$^&!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) -------------------- when we were in orchard and just made a right turn out, this ang moh driver in his silver car suddenly honked at us, turn back to glare at us and sped off. like, what the hell! we turned into our own lane, dammit! i can't stand bad drivers with bad attitudes. but what i can't stand most are bad drivers with bad attitudes and are ang mohs. don't get me wrong, it's not that i have something against all ang mohs. it's just some of them. -------------------- i think our country could well do without these bad lot. did i tell you about the time when we were in holland village waiting for a lot (and it's damn hard to get a small puny lot there) and this ang moh came with his (cheap red weekend-carplate car) and just conveniently parked his car into the lot; ignoring no less than 3 cars who signalled to indicate that they are waiting for the lot, as well as our middle fingers pointed at him. that cheapo. there was this other time in cold storage as well (this time not involving any vehicles) when this ang moh woman pushed her cart which consisted of about 15 items into the "6 items or less" counter. yes, out of the 15 items she had, 10 were of the same kind, and 5 others were different. but hello! can you freaking read?!!!!!!! it says 6 items, not 6 types!!!! -------------------- but of course, not all ang mohs are like that. i like the funny ones. without bad attitudes as well as bad driving skills, of course. ;] --------------------

l o v e ? p r e g g e r s !

2005-04-05T12:28:00.000+08:00

"..after taking eight weeks of maternity leave, Mdm Swee returned to work at a freign re-insurance company, her workplace of three years. But her boss told her to leave the company. when she protested that the termination was 'very unfair' and undermined the Government's pro-baby policy, her boss replied: 'This is your Singapore Government. I am French.' " i say, bloody hell. if you're oh-so-too-freaking-good-for-singapore-and-all-singaporeans-suck-french, then why don't you guys just pack your bags, and get your sorry asses out of our oh-so-lousy-singapore? of course, i would rather like to spout a string of obscenities, but i would like to keep this blog nice and friendly, therefore i would just say this: (just use your imagination aight?) %^&*(@#$%^&amp;amp;*!@#@#!#*&!@$">!^&*(@#^&*!@#@#!#*&!@#^ -------------------- well of course it's not only the multi-national companies who have such practices, but it's really, really unfair. especially with the government's many policies to boost our not-so-good fertility rate. another excerpt: "..two weeks after she told the management of her pregnancy, her boss emailed her to 'resign and leave the company immediately.' ....Mdm Teoh's employer, a Singaporean, said she had been making a lot of typos, and (her) job performance was not up to par." and get this: only 2 months before he emailed her to resign, she was promoted and given a dividend sharing offer based on the company's performance. and he didn't even tell her straight in the face to resign. that arse emailed her!! emailed!!! so i suppose that company simply likes to promote employees who are sub-standard, aye? sheesh!! super rolls eyes until they drop out kind. -------------------- who would be encouraged to start the B-plan when such things often occur? can the government really help these people? "The Ministry of Manpower said anyone who thinks he or she has been terminated unfairly can appeal directly or theough the union (if they are union members) to the Minister for Manpower for reinstatement within two months from the date of dismissal." ya, appeal they will. but what is the point? they might be reinstated, but so what? their companies will no longer treat them like before. they will try means and ways to make them feel uncomfortable, and the employee herself would also not be as enthusiastic and hardworking in her job, as compared to before. in the end, they will just end up leaving the company; probably this time round it's because she is thoroughly disappointed and disgusted with the company. -------------------- in short, companies are just saying that preggers should not "expect to find another job until you have given birth. No one will employ a pregnant woman." wow. such encouraging words. i'm sure that is very encouraging to all couples out there planning to have babies. simply lovely to the ears. -------------------- note: at this point, author's eyes had already dropped out from all that rolling, due to the front-page article from today's TODAY, written by Jasmine Yin. she has now gone off to search for her eyeballs which have rolled off, probably to the kitchen. have a nice day, and please leave comments. =] --------------------

n o w w h a t ?

2005-04-04T14:53:00.000+08:00

exams are finally over. but now what? i spend my days at home in fear of spending (more) money when i go out. so i stay in to watch TV, sleep, surf the net, read newspapers, read Harry Potter for the 1001th time, (to all fans: 6th book is coming out soon!!! yay!) trying to fully-untilise my iPod, and playing neopets. yes, this is how bored i am. i'm actually logging into my long-ago account to play the games inside. someone please help me..!!! ------------------------------------------------------ i searched amongst the many chinese papers on the table for the english one today. the Pope died yesterday. well, ok. so it was already in the papers yesterday, but it was in chinese. my sister was pointed to the headlines of the chinese paper she wsas holding; and our conversation was (somewhat) like this: "shi(1) shi(4) means died right??" "ya." "wah! he die already ah!! really meh!!" "ya. it says bing(4) shi(4). that means died le." my condolences. but he was going to die already, so why be so surprised? (not like my sister is a devout catholic) it's actually better that he died and joined the Father in heaven, instead of having to suffer rite? note: i am not trying to be rude, but am only thinking that it's better now that he doesn't have to suffer. ------------------------------------------------------ okie, another piece of news. Ms Singapore Universe 2005 is out. Cheryl Tay. erm... i would say she looks really nice in the swimsuit. good body. pity about the face though. (whoa, all the guys will shoot me when they see this!) but she's alright nia... not THAT pretty ley. but i suppose they are not really looking for a woman with a very pretty face. (MediaCorp has loads of them, take your pick; then there'll be no need for a beauty pageant.) they would settle for someone whose looks are just average (it's a bonus if she's drop-dead gorgeous) but more importantly, she has to be smart and have a good body to speak of. which accounts for why swimsuit and interview segments are important. remember a potential winner who did not speak as well during the interview segment? racial harmony day siboh! and to think lindsey said i'm 'bombotic'. hah! ------------------------------------------------------ alrighty. Be Cool's at 3:40. gotta go get ready now. shucks! i'm supposed to save money, dammit! ------------------------------------------------------

b o r i n g ?

2005-04-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog. i had wanted to blog about the government's propaganda, as well as expats in singapore, but somehow i can't find certain supporting materials that i had wanted to. which explains for this crap i'm typing now. open the newspaper and i see nothing but casinos, earthquakes and sly (rolls eyes). boring. maybe my life is getting too boring, therefore there is nothing for me to blog about anymore. which also accounts for some people saying that my blog's getting boring. gasp! i'm getting boring!!!! HELLLLPPPPPPPPP..!!!!!!

e r p .

2005-03-31T19:06:00.000+08:00

do not think i'm an ERP expert just because i scored well for the common test. like everyone else, i am just as clueless as to what to focus on. AD? hmmm.. i don't think i'll get lucky this sem ya.. i can hear it already.. "AD?!! with XXX and XX in your course, you think AD so easy meh??!!! *scoffs*" yes. with the not-so-surprisingly high number of elites in my course, it's not difficult to see why i would not be getting the AD. an A, perhaps?? "aiya, you dun haolian la! i failed my ERP and here u're talking about AD and A for ERP!! HAOLIAN!!" well, i suppose i should start now (yes, right now!) if i wanna get an A. "see! after being haolian wanna bluff people rite!! always say haven't start yet!! maybe u pia for ERP 2 months ago le!! wan pple to say you smart issit!!! " ------------------------------------------------------ anyway, i planned to start early, really! ok, fine. so i always plan to start early for all my papers. but somehow i cant seem to concentrate till probably the day before the actual exam. (yes, this is also why i chose to go to a polytechnic instead of a junior college.) just imagine, occupation: college student. college student. sounds 10 times better than polytechnic student lor! but i passed up such a chance cos i knew that the price i would have to pay for the 2 years of 'college student' title would be an additional 3 years of 'polytechnic student' title. hah! ------------------------------------------------------ ok. anyway, back to my point. i havent reallie started for erp yet. i'm so sorry to friends who have come to ask me about cheem stuff like, "wat's big-bang approach?" i really haven started studying. "stop lying through your teeth!!! we've had enough of your lies!!!" i only started sorting out my notes as well as reading through the first few chapters to get back the ERP feel. "AHA! see!! you started le wat!!! still say u havent start!! selfish rite! you just don't want to tell your friends what you know!! SELFISH!!!" oo..errr..ok. i rest my case. ------------------------------------------------------

Exams.

2005-03-29T16:01:00.000+08:00

hello princess *, surprise! how was your MIS? should be okie lah hor. after all, your crapping skills are top-notch. see this post le come and tell me how it went hor. see ya.

t h r e e .

2005-03-28T14:09:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!! 1 down.. 3 more to go..! for those who just read this and think that i'm going mad and ought to be sent to the asylum, i just finished a grueling paper. i feel exonerated from MEC. haha! reeeaaallllyyyy looking forward to friday.. but in the meantime i think i just have to put up with the disgusting pile of notes waiting to be read and digested! urgh! ------------------------------------------------------ oh and btw, xiaobai very good hor.. must be because of her posting a new entry into my blog that's why the hit counter jumped from 500+ to 1000...!!! she wish ah.. xiaobai.. (ok lah, i admit. i secretly wish it's because of me..) haha! as xiaobai says... *rolls eyes till they drop out on to the floor. literally, that is.* (but then again.. i really wonder who's so kind to keep refreshing my blog.. thanx.. *muacks* really served the hit counters' purpose of making myself feel even more popular.. haha!) ------------------------------------------------------ p.s. btw, i just decided to enlarge the feelings of disappointment.. i know it's about expectations (as you guys can see from the tagboard) just tell me if u guys wan xiaobai to write here aight? she's stealing my limelight away...! aaaahhhhhh......!!!!!!! ------------------------------------------------------

Disappointment By Xiao Bai.

2005-03-28T12:42:00.000+08:00

i actually wanted to type a whole huge chunk of my opinion towards disappointment, but i decided against it because i do realize you must be feeling really down, and the last thing you ever need is someone giving you a lecture cum reflective workshop on the topic of disappointment. i think you also probably know what i will say to you regarding disappointment. after all, we think pretty alike. alright, have the privilege of whining then. sometimes it's better for the soul. whine and move on. ------------------------------------------------------ but i can't resist giving you a quote on what disappointment is based on. how can i miss out on a chance to impress? after all, i love the limelight, love to give people a hard time, and love to do everything that is not good. sigh, when will taunts ever come to an end? in a nutshell, disappointment is never based on what you find, but based on what you expect to find. bottomline will always be.. managing expectations. but anyway, i don't think i get disappointed that easily because sometimes i just tell myself, who cares. yes, i'm quite bo chup. but i think it's also a defensive move. defense against disappointment and feeling a grudge against my friends. well, i'm not saying it's good or not good. but i do realize that as much as people disappoint me, i disappoint others. imperfection rules the world. just smile and let the disappointment go. and very tiring to carry disappointment during my day-outings. it outweighs my emotional baggage. shortens my will. tsk, kills me. ------------------------------------------------------ p/s: even though this post sounds awfully straight forward, but i still write it with alot of concern and love. only that there's this big pimple above my lips that is bleeding because i poked it. so i'm feeling hot and not very in a good mood. but i do care okie? i am always a caring friend who gives caring advice over a caring cup of ice blended at coffee bean. i know i know. i can predict what you're going to say. "rolls eyes until they drop out on to the floor. literally that is." hah! (wohoo, purple font. heh!)

d i s a p p o i n t m e n t .

2005-03-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

courtesy of dictionary.com : disappoint: To fail to satisfy the hope, desire, or expectation of. disappointment: a feeling of dissatisfaction that results when your expectations are not realized. ------------------------------------------------ disappointment: when you get back your result slip and realise you did not do as well as you had expected to. disappointment: when you spent the entire day trying to look good for a date later in the evening, but got stood up in the end. disappointment: when you wanted to watch this particular movie but it is sold out. disappointment: when you expect your best friend to understand how you feel, but instead see her agreeing with the rest of the world and condemning you in the process. disappointment: when your parents break their promises for the millionth time. disappointment: when things do not go the way you want them to. disappointment: when you wait by the phone the entire day but that someone did not sms nor called. disappointment: to find out that you were not remembered. disappointment: to find out that some people.. just. don't. care. D i s a p p o i n t m e n t . ------------------------------------------------

while i was away...

2005-03-25T18:00:00.000+08:00

i haven't been blogging. if you actually noticed. it's due to the dreaded 5-letter word... EXAMS!! so anyway, this is gonna be short. so short, it's gonna end now. hah! kidding lah. ------------------------------------------------ hmmmm. (my mind is blank now, therefore it will take a while for me to think of what to post here.) my sister just peeped into my screen and happened to look at the above-written line. "but your mind is always blank... you don't want to let your readers know you're a bimbo." i retorted her with a few words that is not really suitable to be typed in here. bimbo meh?? i can't help but keep thinking about it. it's consuming my brains. (yeah rite, how can it? since my mind is always blank... right baobs?? hmpf.) i don't really look like a bimbo since i'm not THAT pretty, and i'm not like a bimbo cos i have brains which i use, and i can actually tell the difference between 'free shopping' and 'using a credit card to shop'. hah! ------------------------------------------------ anyway, i happened to be reading lindsey's blog and i realised that the few days that i did not come into contact with the virtual world, she wrote many many posts. 3, in 2 days, to be exact. i swear she's addicted to blogging. (thankfully, i am not.) anyone who knows a place without internet and a laptop? don't tell me, tell her! ------------------------------------------------ my sis just told me that my english sucks. am very sad. =[ shall not blog le. *sobz* ------------------------------------------------

Smoking vs. Gambling

2005-03-20T17:00:00.000+08:00

on smoking. ------------------ as we all know, smoking is harmful for our health. it causes lung cancer, therefore smokers die an early and painful death. i have friends who smoke. but frankly, i do not understand why people want to smoke. cigarettes not only are smelly (contrary to the word 'xiang yen'), are harmful to us, they are also expensive. when i say expensive, it truly is expensive. a packet of marlboros will set ur wallet back by eleven freaking dollars. therefore i say people who can afford to smoke marlboro are never poor. assuming smokers who smoke the least, say, 2 packets a week; they will spend $22 a week, $88 a month, and a whopping $1056 a year. and this is only assuming that they smoke 2 packets a week and never increasing the amount. imagine what they can do with the $1056 increase in their bank accounts per annum. ------------------------------------------------ some of my non-smoking friends hate to go to al fresco dining places, as there are bound to be smokers there, blowing smoke in our faces while we eat. non-smokers who constantly inhale cigarette smoke from others, are called passive smokers. apparently we die earlier. sometimes i wonder if that piece of fact is actually true; or perhaps it's just something created by some people to let non-smokers like us hate smokers more. i don't mean to say i hate smokers, but there definitely are people who, after knowing that passive smokers die earlier, will dislike people who smoke, and also encourage them to quit. but of course, being able to quit is definitely a good thing. recently i have come across some news which i know once implemented, will cause some of my friends to be clapping with joy, and others, cussing and swearing. the government has apparently decided to implement a new law which does not allow smokers to smoke at food places, as well as clubs. it therefore means that we will not see anymore smokers smoking at coffee shops, cafes, or any al fresco dining places because they are not allowed to, according to the law. it also means that we will have a smoke-free pub/club in the future. whoopie-yay for non-smokers like me. we no longer have to get smoke blowing into our faces. we also can go clubbing, have fun, and go home smelling anything other than an ash tray. however, it's not a whoopie-yay for the smokers. au contrary. they are practically unacceptable anywhere other than their homes. truly, i feel that it's too harsh a law on them. it's quite fair to not be able to smoke in air-conditioned places, is that not? and smoking being prohibited in clubs??? is that really necessary?? ------------------------------------------------ on gambling. ------------------ there are also issues regarding the opening of a casino in our country. apparently singaporeans love to gamble, and a hefty sum of money is lost outside of singapore due to these gamblers. (can u imagine the horrors of horrors??? money is actually flowing out of singapore!!!) having a casino in singapore will then retain that hefty sum of money in singapore, as well as attract more tourists here. according to their statistics, about 65% of the singapore population are not extremists, and therefore will accept the majority's decision. addressing the public's concers, casinos do not also necessarily create more chaos in the area; crime rates do not necessarily rise in areas where there are casinos. it is said that if a casino is really built in singapore, there are rules that will be laid down to ensure that our bright and sunny island will not turn into a sleazy area. obviously, people who are under-aged are not allowed in the casino. people who go in to pay will also have to place an amount acting as a deposit. or was it entrance fee? i can't remember; but i remember it was not $2 nor $20. by building a casino, we can increase our country's GDP, without having to compromise on our safe and sunny island. having a casino has so many benefits.. why not hor?? ------------------------------------------------ gambling is not harmful to the body. it does not make people around you die earlier either. however, gambling, like smoking, is addictive. people get addicted to gambling just like how they can get addicted to smoking. gambling also causes families to fall apart. have we not seen the case too many a times? gambling requires much more money to support, as compared to supporting one's smoking habits. win some, lose some; you may say. however, gambling can never make one rich. (unless you're the owner of the gambling den or casino, of course.) nine out of ten gamblers lose money. therefore taking into account winnings as well as losings; let's say a person loses an average of $300 per two weeks. that will be $600 a month, and a whopping $7,200 a year. imagine what they can do with a $7,200 increase in their bank accounts a year. ------------------------------------------------ the government, in trying to prohibit smoking in so many areas, are in a way trying to tell us that since smoking is harmful to us and makes us die earlier; causing them to lose precious resources who can work and make more money for the country in those years; we should set harsh laws so that eventually singapore would also be smoke-free other than the bright and sunny island set in the sea. however, they encourage a casino to be built in our island. i feel that it makes no sense. isn't gambling a greater vice than smoking?? but by prohibiting smoking and allowing gambling to appear on the island; are they trying to tell us that gambling is better than smoking? i say; at least smoking does not cause people to go bankrupt and jump off buildings. it is too idealistic to think that a casino would be beneficial to us. to the country's vault, i would say. for the people? never. ------------------------------------------------ note: i am not against people smoking, nor am i affected by the fact that i might die earlier because of the smoke that i inhale. i am not anti-smokers! i just wanna make the point about gambling. what better way to compare gambling rite? :P

It's Finally Over!

2005-03-19T03:48:00.000+08:00

yeap! IIP Project Presentation is over! THE one and only presentation that mattered most in our road to obtaining a diploma is over, at least for me. [sidetrack: i would like to wish those presenting tomorrow.. i mean today, the best of luck! p.s. were you guys rushing your arses off in school?? :P ] however.( i can hear cries of "But..?" even before i type this!) however, i am not dripping with joy as i thought i would. Why? because although this is THE most important presentation of my entire stay in NgeeAnn that i'll ever have, this is also THE presentation of my entire stay in NgeeAnn that i've had the most regrets from. ------------------------------------------------ alas. there is no second chance for everyone nor anyone else. (okay. i admit. i'm desperately trying to convince myself that i was dreaming, or rather, having a nightmare, about what had happened the presentation; and that i'll wake up from my nightmare and prepare myself for THE presentation later in the morning. ) in case you were wondering, at this point, which was the deadly virus that my laptop has caught, causing it to lose precious, un-backed-up files and folders that needs to be uploaded; my website is Perfect with a capital P and a cherry on top. Absolutely gorgeous. Simply wonderfu.. oops. you guys are still here.. sorry. i could go on for days about how attractive and awesome my website is. that's because it is. or so i think anyway. "then you regret what?!?!?!" yes, i can hear your screams aaalll the way from here already, thank you very much. my presentation. THE presentation. (read: it's PRESENTATION, not website.) THE ever-so-smoothly-delivered presentation, coupled with our it's-damn-nice-lah-fantabulastic website, has been playing and re-playing flawlessly in my mind; which would have eventually secured our entire group with big, fat, As on our report cards. (ya, i know, i know. we don't have report cards at NgeeAnn. but it definitely sounds much better than 'flimsy piece of result slip', aight?) THE presentation that has since became a not-so-smooth-delivery presentation, hopefully presented together with our it's-still-damn-nice-and-divine website, will do the trick as well. allow me to tell you, right up to the miniscule details of why was the regret formed through the entire presentation. (alright, it's not every single detail, just what matters most. to me at least.) so bear with me for a while. you can skip to the next post if you like. just don't tell me that you skipped my post aight? i'll be sad. ------------------------------------------------ THE PRESENTATION: Chapter 1: Way to get the cotton-candy-sugar-bunny scenario. ok. for those who don't already know. we students like to dig for information and experiences that happened to our friends taking both same and different modules as us. we basically like to share our information with one another. currently being educated and moulded into the future leaders of the next generation society, we will pursue fame and fortune fiercely, marry and settle down early, have a dozen or so of kids before thirty-five to save future population in singapore, and basically just get brainwashed by the top people and support them blindly for the rest of our lives... ooh.. oops..! err.. actually i really meant that we will not forget the less fortunate in our society, and therefore we will build up of our corporate empire, and in that way, we can create more job opportunities for the unemployed. yup, that's what i meant. we love to care and share. really. =] ok, back to school please. (hey, we gotta finish school before getting the wealth and riches right? our piece of certificate means alot to our caring society who does not want to under-employ you guys, you know.. now why do i detect numerous actions of what seems to be the rolling of eyes?) so anyway, i gathered and collated the experiences that i had obtained straight from the horses' mouths even before last semester ended. (i'm not being kiasu lah, i just wanna do my research well and be prepared for what's gonna hit me like a train would in the face if i didn't actually know earlier.) devils disguised as teachers sneering at me, laughing at me, mocking my presentation, disrupting my well-rehearsed presentation causing the already-nervous me to be lost somewhere in outer-space, and gasp! embarrassing and humiliating me when i do not have the answers to their questions they shoot me with. this was what i had conjured up in my brains, and even before i started this semester, this will be it in my mind whenever someone mentions the word I-I-P. not exactly a very cotton-candy-sugar-bunny kind of scenario eh? far from it! ------------------------------------------------ THE PRESENTATION: Chapter 2: Way to Complete Project. in my impression, completing IIP was a tricky thing and a not-very-easy-to-accomplish task. i was right. not only did we have to struggle through the project, we also had to juggle between the project itself, the many assignments that always seem to look reproachfully at me for not completing them, but also tests and more tests. therefore although i badly wanted allow myself to immerse and soak in the joy and happiness of being able to complete the checkout through E-NETS, i did not. but i was really thrilled that we could link our payment gateway to E-NETS, as from what i know, only 2 groups last semester managed to link and achieve payment via E-NETS. can you believe it?! only 2 groups managed to do that!! 2 leh!!

Now what would you think of iip if you heard that previously, only 2 groups managed to complete all the requirements if the project?! i therefore suspect that due to the previous batch's (many) unsuccessful attempts, we were given much help by the lecturers. (suspect only lah. not confirmed true. haven't checked sources.) but even if the lecturers really did help us a pretty great deal, life was still not a bed of roses nor a box of ferrero rochers.

[NB: please do not mistake that i meant to say my group's project is very good since we managed to produce a complete checkout process. i'm just trying to highlight the fact that IIP sounds very terrifying and difficult.] ------------------------------------------------ THE PRESENTATION: Chapter 3: Earth Invader. on Thursday, 17th March 2005 at around 2:35pm, something incredible happened to me. I WAS POSSESSED BY AN INVISIBLE MARTIAN!! come to think of it, it wasn't that incredible after all. the martian possessed me without me realising. that creep. i had noticed earlier that i was a little retarded in my thinking process once presentation had started, but did not read much into it as i attributed it to my being nervous. only later did i realise that the abnormal behaviour was caused by the martian trying to share my thoughts. (your computer will also slow down if you're running dreamweaver and flash with countless of files in there, right? yes and so will my brain lah!) it only introduced itself a little while later, as a harmless and cute creature. i really thought it was harmless as it did nothing to except to slow me down a little. (but i figured that it would help cos i tend to speak faster during presentations than i would like.) the moment my turn finally came to blow the crowd away with my presentation skills was the moment it decided to show me how friendly and sincere he was in wanting to be my friend. in its (one-sided) goodwill, it replaced my 'zhong qi shi zu' voice with what i was told that it was the epitome of a soft and gently voice. apparently the voice was gathered from the essence a thousand fairies singing, dancing, giggling while sitting on the petals of the flowers and the leaves on the trees, enjoying the cool breeze, bout of refreshing air and the mellow dew; and would make my voice soft, gentle, sugary and nice. i was horrified to learnt that it replaced my voice. (hey! i was and still am happy with my voice!) when the shock passed, anger took its (horrified, not martian) place. i demanded it (martian this time, not horrified nor anger) to come out and meet me face-to-face to settle my evidently irreversible voice. my words were dripping with honey, i had to show him some facial expressions to let him know that i was furious. bad move. it was not as cute as it had said it was. faaaar from it. i was horrified, for the second time. to cut the story short, it was basically a disgusting slimeball of a creature and even you would think so if you actually see it. (it would then be a "1..2..3.. altogether now.. EEEWWWWWW...GROSSS!!!!" ) if you saw what i had seen, you would have said the same words which i had said. i told it to get lost and go back to where it belongs where everyone looks the same and noone was ever disgusting or ugly. it finally got angry and apparently decided to take revenge. i knew i should be nice in the first place. too late. first thing it did was to whip a cloth and a bottle which says: 'Brainwashing Liquid. Caution: BRAIN WILL DISAPPEAR AFTER LONG!' i recovered from my initial to realise only too late that it had started to scrub my brain furiously, causing me to lose most information with regards to the presentation itself. after the seemingly strenuous exercise which gave it an ache in its arms and a hole in my brain, it decided that the hole in my brain was satisfactory, and moved on to what seemed to him, two constantly-moving, ball-like things with numerous red lines running on it. the instant it reached out to grab the objects of its desires, was the exact same moment my eyeballs really did pop out and would have definitey rolled away, (for good this time round) if not for it pulling them back at the nick of time. it then proceeded to control my eyeballs, and restricted my eye movements to ignore the left side of me. [sidetrack: i think that it either liked or disliked those seated at my left too much to want me to not look at that area/person. i actually tried desperately to stuff this piece of information into the hole in my brain; but i still failed to block a tiny part of the hole, in which the data containing information to whether it actually liked or disliked those seated at my left, seeped out. (try as i might, i just could not save it from leaking out.)] while it was having fun, i was desperately trying to escape its control. it noticed and wrestled and wrenched, and finally emerged the winner and took control of my limbs. it made me wave my arms crazily around and forced me to point in directions that i did not wish to. its wrenching and wrestling caused me immense pain. at the crux when i decided that i could no longer take it and wanted to scream out loud, it suddenly and eventually left (for good), but not before i passed on to the next speaker to continue the presentation. relief came over me that i was no longer in pain and also regained full control over my limbs, and eyes, and got back my original brain and voice.

i had one thought in my mind when it soon dawned on me that i had screwed up my presentation, and everything practically went downhill from then on: someone please tell me that teachers will definitely look into our websites again and re-evaluate the marks accordingly. i was crushed.

i hate martians! *sniffles* ------------------------------------------------ THE CHAPTER: Chapter 4: Looking Back. we can't live in the past, nor go back to the past. therefore i've learned (and trying to put into practice) that it's pointless to harp on worthless issues such as the bad presentation. (oh how i hate martians!!)

what's worth mentioning, however, is the brief pre-presentation period while we were in The Room. it's quite funny actually.

when second we stepped into The Room, the tension started to flow in increasingly at a steady and fast rate. it would have killed us all if not for Mr. Steven Lim who finally broke the tension by saying that he could hardly recognise me.

"Why?"

teachers' reply (and i quote) was, "Because you are usually dressed so sloppily."

*almost fainted* "errr.. orh. teacher, thank you for your err.. compliment." (actually Miss. Nellie Chew was the one who prompted me in saying thank you. i merely follwed suit.)

but i really wanna thank teacher for breaking the tension, and also for the compliments about how nice our website looked. Thanks! =]

actually the teachers were being pretty friendly to us at that time, and it was far from the devils-disguised-as-teachers-thought i had all the time. it was almost like the cotton-candy-sugar-bunny kind of situation.

[ time to PR abit: to all the 11 teachers who were in The Room: thank you for just listening, and hope you guys enjoyed our website.]

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THE PRESENTATION: Chapter 5: Reminiscence.

i will always remember the entire process of our IIP. yeap. from the start right up to the before the martian appeared anyway. (chant: i hate martians! i hate martians!)

if i may say, IIP brings people together. as the presentation date drew nearer, relations between own group members, as well as across other groups evolved for the better. or worse.

relations and bonds in my group, fortunately, did not turn worse. and i guess that the night before the presentation in the atrium will be etched in my mind forever.

[time to PR again, but this time to my group: Thanks guys! we did a wonderful job with the entire project! =] p.s. sorry i screwed up though. hmm. ok. =/ sshh.]

it was my first time in school till so late doing project. (or anything else, for that matters.) the guards came to chase us out; the lights in the atrium were all turned off; the guards came and went without us realising that they had placed overnight fines on the windscreens of our cars; the only thing that made us finally leave at almost 3am into the morning was fatigue.

one thing i realised though, was that although we had a colossal amount of loose ends that needed to be tied up that night, not much pressure and anxiety was there. i guess is was due to the steady stream of jokes, and oh. one very important notion we held on in our minds that helped us come this far:

"YAY! after this we're one step nearer to our oversea trips planned for after the semester ends! JIAYOU!"

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authors' note: this post is also posted in lindsey's blog because she requested for it. much time and effort have been spent creating this post, therefore i hope you guys have enjoyed my post. =]

and author would like to thank Lindsey for her patience in teaching me certain fireworks and flash skills, and time taken off her extremely busy schedule to help and advise me on how to make my website prettier. Thanks babe!! *muacks muacks muacks!*

Where's my post???

2005-03-18T06:03:00.000+08:00

due to a buddy's request, my most recent blog can be found here. enjoy. =] p.s. i actually had to blog the entire post twice due to bloggers' lousy website. was really pissed as i had spent a total of almost 5 hours on the first post. anyway, here's the (almost) complete replica of my initial post. =]

Formal, or too formal?

2005-03-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

This was the question that i asked myself (and others) for the millionth time the day before my ERP presentation. Basically, formal wear for girls include: 1. covered shoes. 2. pants or skirt (if skirt, has to be below the knee.) 3. collared shirt. (not too un-buttoned so it shows your boobs, and not too short. obviously.) 3. jacket. ----------------------------------------------------------- Now in NgeeAnn, jackets are practically aliens in formal presentations. but why? we defintely look smarter. and my friend made a good point. if it were really a business meeting/presentation and you are competing with many others to sell your idea to the company. will the directors pay you any attention if you are not smartly dressed? yes, definitely some people will argue. "if i am good, and my content is good, doesn't matter what i wear what!" ooo-okay. (rolls eyes) however. first impression counts. you can never escape from this fact. imagine a shabbily dressed person coming into your posh office in the nicest part of town to sell you his idea. hell, he'd probably wouldn't be allowed into the building in the first place! (okay, i'm probably exaggerating, but ya, you get the picture.) ----------------------------------------------------------- so anyway, i went to zara to get a black collared top which looks formal for the presention. i didn't end up wearing that though. i wore a sort of funky (i would say) formal wear to present. and i was the only one who wore a jacket. too formal? for my class yes. for NgeeAnn, perhaps. Anyway, i almost conformed to the norms of our school, and almost wore a boring set of clothes to present. Almost. ----------------------------------------------------------- Now for guys: 1. shoes. (no basketball shoes please.) 2. pants. (not too low that it shows the butt, of course.) 3. collared shirt. (not too un-buttoned so it shows whatever chest hair you guys have.) 4. tie. 5. jacket. ----------------------------------------------------------- In NgeeAnn, guys do not wear jackets. they somehow think that their collared shirt would suffice. basically they just don't look very smart. anyway, they somehow make it worse when they un-button their shirts too much, and/or fold their sleeves up halfway; hence making them look like educated(?) bengs. and they don't wear ties. does this really mean that any collared shirt will equal to formal? ----------------------------------------------------------- so according to the 3 years' worth of presentation norms i've seen in NgeeAnn, i have come to a conclusion that we are just not dressing smartly enough! anyway. perhaps i'm just writing this post to justify my wearing of the over-formal suit. bleah. -----------------------------------------------------------

Add-on.

2005-03-11T09:22:00.000+08:00

hmmm. this is to my baobz. haha.! i forgot about the pre-birthday dinner she treated me to at Kenny Rogers. sidetrack: i almost chose cheap hawker food instead. lucky me. hah! ----------------------------------------------------------- you're being appreciated lah, baobz. stop being disappointed. but. will be better if u quickly gimme my birthday present.. hehe! :P CECILIA RUAN! are you listening???? -----------------------------------------------------------

Happy Birthday to Me!

2005-03-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

i've hit the big TWO-0! Anyway, thanks everyone for the many many sms-es to wish me Happy Birthday!(dunno to be happy or sad also.. hah!) love you guys! *muacks* ----------------------------------------------------------- Birthday clash. ----------------------------------------------------------- on a side note however, the day of my birthday was also the day of my ERP presentation.. hmm.. thought it would go well cos' we rehearsed for many times.. but obviously, we were still too nervous and the demo was a little.. hmmm.. interrupted.. hopefully that would not affect the grade that teacher is going to give.. much. ok lah, i'm quite disappointed cos i was too nervous then cock up the demo a little lah.. so dui bu qi my group... =[ but ah well.. i guess for the first group of the level presenting the ERP.. shouldn't be that bad lah, i think. but the girls' interruption outside the ERP lab lifted my spirits lah.. hehe! =] ----------------------------------------------------------- Greatly Appreciated. ----------------------------------------------------------- List of my presents (so far): 1. Hug. [Thanks baobz! *muacks* but. where's my present??] 2.White-based with big, pink polka-dot and small, yellow polka-dot ice cream cake. [Thanks darling, for celebrating with me moments after i turned 20! love you! *muacks muacks*] 3. Ricola Green Tea lozenges. [Thanks teacher nellie! hao guo mei you lah.. hehe! *muacks* p.s. although i'd rather an AD.. hehe!] 4. Häagen-Dazs Mango+Strawberry ice cream cake. [Thank you huihui, beanie, lindsey, minmin, jiali and john! it was a very yummy, alomost-melted ice cream cake!] 5. Swarovski pink heart-shaped necklace. [the sparkling, lovely, pink coloured heart is hanging on my neck now, thanx guys! (as mentioned in section 5.)] 6. Poloroid camera. [hehe! haven use yet, but simply luurrvee it! thanxx guys!!! (again.)] 7. Roxy jacket. [yay! like it so much! will purposely go to some cold place so that i can use 24/7! =] THANK YOU! (and again)] therefore, i would like to thank the above-mentioned people for all their lovely presents!! *muacks muacks muacks!* ----------------------------------------------------------- the wait. ----------------------------------------------------------- yup, so far these are just what i got for my 20th birthday.. hehe still waiting for my sisters' presents.. hah! (baobz.. i know u read my blog.. are you listening?? :P ) -----------------------------------------------------------

Psst..! Have you heard..?

2005-03-08T01:24:00.000+08:00

latest heard from the grapevine: Lindsey's got a boyfriend! what?! really?!! ok. i'm exaggerating. she has many secret admirers. (guys lah) to one of the many guys reading this: are you one of her secret admirers? apparently she has got many of them. and i quote the missus: "i got alot ley!" p.s. Lindsey: "ni hen cool leh!! *pause for minute* zhen de hen cooolll...!!" ----------------------------------------------------------- a pot calling the kettle black. ----------------------------------------------------------- hmmm. this semester is a busy one for me due to the fact that i had a semestral integrated project to complete. Lindsey would understand, because she has gone throught the same semester as me previously. while she was slogging away for her project last semester, yours truly was helping her with her assignments, and i did not complain to her about her not having time for me. (sidetrack: ok, we sound a little like lovers when it comes to the part of not having time for one another, but hey, friends need quality time together for the friendship to blossom, aight?) but now. now she had conveniently forgotten, about the fact that i'm becoming busy, and she was quite free. (hence, the addiction to bridge which started out this semester.) and yet. yet she had the audacity to complain to me about me not having enough time for her. (yes, it's slightly confusing.. so did u manage to catch that part?) she never spend time with me last semester also mah... i ended up doing her IS assignments lor... HMPF.! evil. ----------------------------------------------------------- Lindsey. (what?! haven't you had enough of her?!!!) ----------------------------------------------------------- hmmmm. not quite, actually. (she'll be over the moon when she sees this. damn.) we decided on a girls' night out for every friday. apparently this method works well. no more trying to find time to fit them into the schedule. (not just me, it works both ways!) just setting aside fridays for the girls. (i.e. Cherlyn and Lindsey. ok, and recently, sometimes John. haha!) i can't say that we've been through thick and thin, but the friendship has definitely grown tremendously over the years. (don't you agree? =] *muacks*) All in all, i guess i'm just thankful that i have met this good buddy of mine. (how can i ever forget, right? *winks*) ----------------------------------------------------------- My beloved buddies of NP. ----------------------------------------------------------- of course, i definitely will not forget my other beloved buddies like Cherlyn, Xuemin, and Beanie.! *muacks muacks* you guys have made my almost 3 years in NP so far, a most enjoyable and memorable one admist the hectic schedule and sucky (oops.!) teachers. ok, this sounds like a goodbye thingy already. yuucckksss. hmmm. LOVE YOU GUYS!! *muacks muacks muacks muacks muacks!* ----------------------------------------------------------- p.p.s. Lindsey: "ni zhen de hao cooll wor!!!!"

f r i e n d s ?

2005-03-04T19:24:00.000+08:00

recently was talking to a friend about some of the people around us whom we know. (right now, am saying 'people' and not 'friends', because obviously, do not know if am able to really call them friends.) feel strongly about this, therefore might sound increasingly angry while blogging all these down. pardon me if it's something you guys do not happen to like. actually, i take it back. do not really care what you people think. unless you're one of my close friends. and guys, you know who you are. =] *muacks* ----------------------------------------------------------- anyway, admist our animated conversation, i realised afew top traits i have come to detest from my friends, or rather, soon-to-be friends. here goes the list. *drumroll* pai ming bu fen xian hou! (i.e. it's not ranked. ya, cos all of those are just as detestful.) -------------------- 1. 'gei-gao' or calculative. it's not wrong to draw a clear line when it comes to money. but it's not right to be over-calculative about it. when eating at fancy places, some people act as if they did not receive any service from the staff. for example, food cost $15 so they pay $15. only. like, hello! did you go to the kitchen to get your own food? well maybe you should next time! -------------------- 2. fake. wow, when i say fake, it's really fake. f-a-k-e. you'd be surprised. being super nice and ultra smiley infront of you, but bitching about you to others behind your back. grrrrrrrrrr. -------------------- 3. taking your friend for granted. no one in the world is supposed to treat you well. (probably except your family members, but there are exceptions as well.) when your friend is good to you, it's because they are being nice. it depends on whether you deserve the treatment. because friends around you are not supposed to be ultra nice to you, or do things for you. they are NOT SUPPOSED TO. -------------------- 4. taking advantage of your friend. it's often easy to tell who are those people who cannot bring themselves to say 'no' to you. but. it does not mean that you can exploit their kindness. knowing very well that they will not turn down any of your requests, and yet you ask for favours all the time, it's exploitation. E-X-P-L-O-I-T-A-T-I-O-N.! -------------------- hmmm. think that's about it.. have actually kept this as a draft for a day now, but i find nothing more to add. was a little apprehensive in blogging about this as well.. but what the heck. i'll post it anyway. -------------------- these things, thankfully, has not happened often to me. but it has happened and is still happening to my friends around me. (maybe it's because people know that i bite and secretly devour human as a past time.) i feel very angry when i hear of such things. and i really cannot understand, no matter how hard i try, why do these people treat friends who are nice to them in this manner. but perhaps am not them therefore do not understand their mentality. glad am not them anyway. hah! -------------------- so reading till here, you must have been thinking already; i hope. so think: do you have such a friend around you? --------------------