My Heart.

My heart has been bruised, hurt, battered, cracked, and torn apart in many small pieces.

It hurt so bad I thought I had died, and that my heart will never beat again.

Now that my heart has just managed a weak beat; will you cherish it, or would you, like many others, tear apart those old wounds and render my heart irreparable?

Omg.

Super nua today. Dunch feel like working at all. :(

Missing you..

Secret.

I can't sleep well if I don't hear your voice. I foresee the day I can't sleep well if I'm not in your arms is near...

Things that I'm missing right now.

I miss turning to my right to warm flesh and a wonderful scent.

Not forgetting the feeling of being safe, loved, and bliss. All in one turn.

:(
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Bad day.

Today is a Friday. Supposed to be a good day. Somehow for me, it's the opposite.

Early morning I remembered that my gym partner was not coming along with me. Again.

Now I'm late for gym but still have to go collect my shoes which I left at Idiot's house.

The arsehole doesn't seem to like to respond to me. I say me, cos I don't know if he replies to other pple, and I don't wish to speculate.

I sometimes hate bbm cos I can see that the person has read my msgs but can't be bothered to reply me. Sometimes I wish I'm so rich cos times like these I seriously feel like smashing my hp on the floor and stomping on it.

It's almost Friday night but I think I'm gonna be at home with my 15 year-old sister. Yes, I agree it's quite pathetic in a way that I almost feel sorry for myself.

And Yes. Arsehole and Idiot are the same person.

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Love my blog!

Haha so random, I know. But everytime I look at my blog I get so happy.

The banner of onigiris damn cute!!!

Love love love ttm! ♥

Makes me happy! Shalala!!! ☺

♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺ ♥ ☺




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Bloody irritated ttm.

I am super irritated. Why oh WHY some people never learn??? Why some people refused to be taught????????

I hate HATE HATE HATE HATE picking up after people. It's not my problem, has got nothing to do with me, and I am not involved!!!!!

Why must I pick up your pieces???? Literally fucking kio sai for you man!! Wtf!! Damn bloody piss me off!

If it's like occasionally I got nothing to say. But it's like bloody fucking all the time!!! I'm not bloody shit collector!!!! STOP ASKING ME TO DO STUFF!!! And STOP MAKING ME PICK UP AFTER YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Irritated to the point that I can't fall asleept. #*$+%@]!#€*£@& ttm!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's times like these when I wish I would hurry get a place of my own and stay alone.







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Scrambled eggs!

Wanted to eat mackers-styled scrambled eggs and found a good recipe.

Taken from http://www.bbcgoodfood.com/recipes/1720/perfect-scrambled-eggs

Ingredients:
2 eggs
6 tbsp milk
Butter
Pinch of salt

1. Lightly whisk the eggs, cream and a pinch of salt together until all the ingredients are just combined and the mixture has one consistency.

2. Heat a small non-stick frying pan for a minute or so, then add the butter and let it melt. Don't allow the butter to brown or it will discolour the eggs. Pour in the egg mixture and let it sit, without stirring, for 20 seconds. Stir with a wooden spoon, lifting and folding it over from the bottom of the pan. Let it sit for another 10 seconds then stir and fold again.

3. Repeat until the eggs are softly set and slightly runny in places, then remove from the heat and leave for a few seconds to finish cooking. Give a final stir and serve the velvety scramble without delay.

Tips for getting the best results

Always use a non-stick pan with a wooden spoon for best results and easy cleaning. Don't over-stir - think of theseas folded eggs rather than scrambled. The eggs should have the texture of soft curds. It's best not to cook more than three portions in one go as you will overcrowd the pan and the eggs won't cook as well. For larger numbers, cook in two pans rather than one.

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Feeling abit emo..

Sian. Feeling emo now. Wtf. Why always like that one. Always let me wait.

I always feel like I'm talking to myself. Always being ignored or put aside like you would put a can of beans aside for later use or smthing.

Response also must wait. Then what's the point of having a conversation? I might as well be talking to myself.

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother...

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Happy-ness.

I was thinking. Small little things makes me feel at first irritated and annoyed; and after some time it manifests and I get unhappy.

Like a scale, I have learnt that the best way to ignore such annoyance would be to take into heart each little heart-warming, blissful moments in life.

Sleeping in till as late as you want without any disturbances, waking up to a sweet sms, or merely taking your time to do something and not rushing with the rest of the world.

Learn to smile :D :) ;D ;) . Learn to be grateful, gracious, and generous. Have happy thoughts, do good things, and say nice words to people around you.

People will feel better, and so will you. But of course, I just woke up. I'm trying to remind myself to do such. And telling myself to ignore the pushing crowd at bus and train stations.

Think happy, BE happy. ♥







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Unexpected-ness.

Things are never quite what we expect, are they? But how does one always expect the unexpected?

That person would have to be on his toes all the time wouldn't he? Tensions arising.. Haiz.

Nowadays I'm usually mentally alert, but physically exhausted. These unexpected events better not appear ever so often.. I might not be able to take it.. Being mentally exhausted is, well, exhausting.

Boo. Shall try to push these nasty thoughts out of my head.






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I'm not christian, but I believe the saying 'do unto others what you want others do unto you'.

I'm not saying I'm the best person on earth, but I TRY to make it a point to be at least civil.

I dunno if some pple out there even TRY to be considerate to other pple's feelings. I really think the entire world would become that much nicer if everyone tries.

I think it's karma that I have to live with someone who is not very considerate to others. I don't think he means it. It's just his character.

But it seriously bloody as hell irritates me!!



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Time for Change?

There is a time when all of us feel tired, not the sleepy kind of tired. But when we get tired of what we are doing, when we get tired of our lives and need a change.

I feel like I am needing this change. Maybe I really do need it. Personally, I am trying to make a change in my life.

I try hard not to be affected by current events, but I find it increasingly difficult; especially as the days passes by. I really do not like what I am feeling, and sometimes I wonder what has happened to me.

Did something go wrong somewhere? Or have I already changed over the years without realising so?

I'm feeling really confused about some things, and some people whom I once thought I knew.. Kinda feel abit lost and sad as well..

Haiz...
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Sad Reality

I just realised I absolutely love being a student. And I am really one of the rare ones amongst those I know who truly love my major.

BUT. I realised the major downside of being a student. Other than having to live on allowance, studying / mugging / projectwork / staying up late all causes one to grow FAT.

Tmd lor. Nb nb nb!!
I needa faster grad and go run!


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How you post it!

How many types of Post-it® Brand sticky notes do you use?? I'm sure many stationery lovers out there have seen the various designs of the new Post-it® Super Sticky Notes range. I love it!

newer, brighter colours! we've come a long way from the typical pale yellow stickies!

these are great for sch work.. lines keep them neat! me likey!

these are a personal favourite of mine.. die-cut Post-it® Super Sticky Notes! great for leaving small shoutouts to family, and colourful enough for me to notice them!

Post-it® celebrates 30 years of colour and fun with a Post-it® “How You Use It” contest! simply go to the contest website here and upload a video or photo of how you use Post-it® Super Sticky Notes, and u can stand to win some fabulous prizes!!

as for me, this is how i use my Post-it® Super Sticky Notes!

nice right?? it says smile! :)

remember, use Post-it® Super Sticky Notes!

well, i'm a direction-idiot; therefore most times i need to rely on the map. BUT it is really very difficult to read the map and drive at the same time. so often, i write down all the directions needed on the sticky, like this!

then i paste them in the car, where i can see.. my very own Post-it® Brand GPS!

it says "i use Post-it® Super Sticky Notes to plan my entire route, so i can use when driving... my very own Post-it® Brand GPS!"

haha this is my contest photo!!

:( my blog got something wrong, all photos kena cut abit.. haha

Totally Random

Staring into space after a delightful but heavy breakfast at Mac's. When I inevitably eat Mac's, I try not to think about the blog which keeps track of the happy meal that cannot decompose. -___-

On a lighter note, Mac's cinnamon melts are back! Yummers! Hahaha I realised that I'm totally blogging about Mac's. Sheesh! Greedy!

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Errr.

Watching ch8's 从心开始.. The main guest today was sharing her story... Ok lah, quite cham.

Her first husband turned violent on her, thus she left her three young kids with her husband and got a divorce. Subsequently she was with three other men and had four other kids with them.

Seriously, she's a little silly. The second man she was with, and had 2 girls with, was actually married but she didn't know. The third was doing drugs, and the last was a good-for-nothing.

Wtf right! Not the men in her life, but HER!!! Seriously! Firstly, why be so bad in all your choices of men???? Don't even know whether they are married?? Sheesh!! Secondly, why rely on men???? To quote from 'The First Wives Club', it's disgraceful to rely on men for anything, it seems.

Maybe she needed emotional support, but still. And at least 1 kid with each guy???????? Actually really quite stupid lor!!!!!!

Abit abrupt, but I just needed to voice out my thoughts...


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Blessed.

It's true.. Look at the less fortunate and you will see how truly blessed your life is. I do not belong to any particular religion, but at times I truly count my blessings.


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Tiger, Year.

In the year of the tiger, seems like everyone wants to be Tiger. Woods, that is. Singapore truly has everything, clean, green, rich, and has her own Tiger Woods.

Better known as Jack Neo, our homegrown comedian-turned-director. Well, well, well. About 11 affairs, almost all of them are young girls. Wussup with men like him?? Mid-life crisis????

Granted, of course; I'm not his wife. I am not one to judge him. Like I said on my fb just after his affair was exposed; the act of a 50year-old getting it on with someone who is about the same age as his daughter is actually quite gross.

Contrary to some who may think I'm being judgemental, I'm not. I'm just criticising the act of having an affair with someone who is like his daughter. It is gross to me.

But what I'm about to say will prolly be judgemental. I saw in the papers that a male artiste under his mgmt team had publicly said that he is supporting Tiger Wannabe Neo because he is a very talented person.

Since when is talent, power, or riches the passport to acceptance even for his/her wrongdoings???? So if I am the person who created Singapore, does it mean I can get away scott-free if I kill someone????

Of course, this is a rather exaggerated example, but seriously! When I saw what he said I was quite shocked.

I think it's partly propaganda on the media's part to steer the public into sympathizing with Tiger Wannabe Neo.

But seriously, whatever. I'm not his wife, so I don't give shit whether she forgives him or not. But it is truly hypocritical of him to speak, and film of love and moral values when his is really warped.

Men suck big time.






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Life.

Of course, one who is only a quarter of a century old is not yet qualified to talk about such a profound topic. Talking about life requires lots and lots of experiences.

Today, I have learnt many things. Of the most important, would be that people that I care for cannot be taken for as constants in my life. People, whom I would expect to look, feel, and be the same, no matter when and where I meet them.


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