Is there ever really nothing to hide?

Have you ever met a person who says their conscience is clear? the sentence that often accompanies this would be 'I have nothing to hide'. But is there? Isn't there always a thing or a habit that we are ashamed of and try to hide it from prying eyes? Can there really be a person who says they have nothing to hide and then actually do it? But then again, how would we know?

It is not uncommon to not know everything about the person you are with when the relationship is just beginning to blossom. There is an air of excitement that rapidly builds up the connection between two people when thinking the other party is 'mysterious'. 'Mysterious', however, would definitely be not-so-mysterious after all; because all of us are innately curious bastards. We will try means and ways, even tactical approaches that deem fit the situation; just to pry more out of the other party we so much can't get enough of.

So supposing in a married couple, we actually see two people not knowing everything about each other, is that weird? Do they genuinely not want to know everything about the person they are married to, or do they have something to hide? Does not knowing everything about the person you are married to creates the 'mysterious' mood; and actually enables the air of curiousity to last, hopefully forever? I have heard of a couple who have been married for almost thirty years but still bathe and change separately. According to his wife, this creates the mysterious mood between them two, she is enable to give him surprises in the wardrobe area, and her husband cannot get enough of her even after three decades.

However, when one stresses the importance of honesty in a relationship, is it allowed when they hide certain things from each other? would that be called cheating? Or is this just called being selfish? Selfish that you just want to know everything about your partner to satisfy your own curiousity, but turn evasive and moody when asked about your own past and skeletons in the closet? When the relationship eventually sexual relationship, some may find it offensive that they can sacrifice their body to give pleasures that are desired, but still be shunned from questions they ask. Are certain things really off-limits? Is there always a taboo in everyone's life that is untouchable?

I find it intriguing how people can be really very close, but still keep certain things to themselves and away from those they claim are dear to the heart. So why do we do this? Is this how we are trained; to keep ourselves from feeling naked and to protect ourselves from riducule? I was wondering if Eve actually lied to Adam until I remembered she did eventually keep him away from her after consuming the forbidden fruit. Oh well. I really do suppose that our bff is really actually ourselves, and only we know what we have to hide, and flaunt.

those good old days.!

am at work now. *ssshhhhhh..!* so obviously not supposed to be blogging man. such a dull day at work. bah.!

stupid IMF is causing so much trouble at work. even when it hasn't started yet. double bah.!

sian. wonder who will wanna go suntec during the imf period when it's so darn troublesome..

oh hungry, Hungry, HUNGRY.!

was just reminiscing about the good old days in school. *dreamy* and realised that i kinda miss school life. not school. not school work. school life. hey, there's a dfference ok.

to me, school life basically means time spent together hanging out with your school friends. haha. note the word school.. not from school not counted. hah!

primary/secondary/brief jc life aside, i miss waiting for beanie to get off class at the umbrella area; going to town to shop-till-we-drop with hui; slacking in the library with ah min drinking big cups of bubble tea; talking bout everything under-the-sun with bai and many, many, many, other good times we shared.

miss miss miss miss super-duper-ultra miss those good old days.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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these days am very much left alone with my thoughts. have alot of time to myself, that's why. so lonely. =[

friends have left to go perth to further their studies. life now is a mundane cycle which rotates around work, and the tv box. how pathetic.

therefore, have nothing to blog about now. don't think anyone would like to hear my not-too-interesting information about work, or the tv box.

bah. wat a boring life i lead.

p.s. peeps who actually read my blog, please read my previous blog entry and click on the link!!! (or here.) spent much time on it, therefore die die oso must see!!