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haha! in school now, oh gawd. this is how bored i am.

i realised that staying stagnant for too long really takes all form of motivation out. am so not motivated to do my dissertation. damn.

i have a creative suite for sale!!! unopened and unused!!!! anyone wants?? for sale around 107sgd.

speaking of selling stuff on this blog, i am damn freaking pissed. ordered slippers A YEAR AGO from this seller and till now she is not sending me my stuff. pissed.

makes me mad.

i flipped through my mum's copy of wanbao just now, and i saw a piece of news which made me rather disgusted.

i assume by now, everyone in singapore should know that the phrase '老牛吃嫩草' is talking about the local compere; now labeled as the 'old bull'. for those who do not understand chinese, '老牛吃嫩草' simply means an older person (usually a male) who like to date/be with a much younger partner.

according to the article, the old bull was very much married to his wife when he started an affair with his much younger PA. before the scandal/affair was exposed, he apparently lied to his wife that he was moving out temporarily to concentrate on his career. however before he left, he did leave with his wife an agreement which promised to take care of all her expenses, as well as the household.

she apparently thought he was trying to make her feel more secured, and the main reason behind it was because he really loved her so much. my goodness. imagine how she felt when she learnt of his (very publicized) affair. according to my mum, he retorted in defense of his affair that the bull has worked very hard in life, so what is wrong with eating tender grass. *rolls eyes*

anyway, apparently he promised his wife that he will pay for her credit card bills, cable tv bill, (wait lemme go get the papers) insurance fee, handphone/homephone bills, housing loan repayment, utilities bills, misc/maintenance fee, and on top of that a monthly allowance of 5k.

this issue actually died down for some time already, until very recently about afew days back. he apparently hasn't given his soon-to-be ex-wife her 5k alimony for quite a few months, and that was how the whole saga came about again. hah! loser.

anyway she apparently went to his friend's salon to have her hair done, and left the bill (in which she wrote that he had not given her alimony for afew months thus he will be paying for her haircut) for him to pay. hahaha!! not only his friends, even his friend's employees knew about it!!! super lose face!!!

his defense was that he really had no money to give her, and that he could barely fork out 2k per month to give to her, much less the promised 5k. he further complained about his (hefty) monthly expenses, and about the rental of a place to stay. something he left out was his newly purchased car (which SHE told the reporters), and get this, he doesn't even have a driving license!!!

ANYWAY. the point of this post is to tell everyone how disgusted i was, and still am, at such fuckers. in the beginning, he makes it all nice and rosy and appears gentlemanly, to make her agree to a divorce. after she agrees, he bails out on past promises and act poor. FUCK OFF!!!

got no license but go and buy car for fuck?? that's for the filthy rich to do!!! rich people buy cars and place it at home for pleasure viewing, not the poor!! so if he can do that, it must mean he is financially strong.

plus, who can he blame if he has to leave his own home to rent a place to stay??? nobody asked him to cheat on his wife. nobody forces a bull to eat grass lor. *rolls eyes* everyone has to be answerable for their actions, and consequences for each action taken may be far more severe than imaginable. this applies to almost anything, and very much so for fuckers like him.

damn disgusting can?!?!?!?!?! as disgusting as sg's 'modern monk'. argh! GROSS GROSS GROSS GROSS GROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

insomnia

yet another sleepless night.

tried to sleep around 2:30am, tossed and turned and finally slept around 3plus.. woke up at around 4plus and was restless the entire time. which kinda explains why i'm awake before 7am, when my class starts at 9am.

bah!!!!!!

many weird dreams and scenarios floating around in my mind.. i wonder if this is my muse giving me creativity juices. hahahaha! doubt it.

i feel stretched to a certain limits when faced with school work. nothing seems to be going right, and i can't seem to churn out the required number of words for assignments. to some, this may seem normal.. but it says something huh, when i always exceed the maximum allocated word count.

i wonder if it's a mental block, hopefully temporary; or if it's more of a burn-out. unlike my many other fortunate fellow-schoolmates, i am not at liberty to do badly in my studies. *sigh* this is very much what we call in chinese, "tong(2) ren(2) bu(4) tong(2) ming(4)".

long weekend coming up very very soon... national day for singapore. to quote the chinese radio dj, "this is a very special year as it is Singapore's 44th birthday". hahahahahahah!

every year also special what!! next year it's going to be special as it is the nation's 45th birthday! lame ley.... when i hear someone say an occasion is very special, i'm anticipating the really special part. not such lame stuff.. such bs.

after the long weekend is assignment submission day. fark. i can't seem to type anything for the assignment.

and i prolly will end up sleeping in class later. omg.

I SIMPLY LUURRRVVEEE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(*rolls eyes*)

beware! climbers!

recent news got me to thinking about what an author used to term as 'climbers'. i am one who is rather disgusted by such people.

for those who had never read 'first wives club' by olivia goldsmith, the term 'climbers' were used to describe those who latch themselves on people of higher status and climb up the social ladder, so to speak.

recently there was an acquaintance whom dumped her boyfriend of several years to be with an older, much richer 'colleague'. what is it with girls nowadays? this is not a question of love, it is a question of material needs. this i know, for they have only known each other for less than 3 months.

and, sad to say, this is not the only story i have heard by far.

this, which led me to thinking; is this world becoming too materialistic? press news and entertainment have shifted focus to the rich and the wealthy; thus making an impression on young women that whatever your salary might be, a LV bag on your arm is a mere basic necessity.

i think i am completely lucky that my guy is although cute, has zero financial ability to speak of. hahaha.

Is there ever really nothing to hide?

Have you ever met a person who says their conscience is clear? the sentence that often accompanies this would be 'I have nothing to hide'. But is there? Isn't there always a thing or a habit that we are ashamed of and try to hide it from prying eyes? Can there really be a person who says they have nothing to hide and then actually do it? But then again, how would we know?

It is not uncommon to not know everything about the person you are with when the relationship is just beginning to blossom. There is an air of excitement that rapidly builds up the connection between two people when thinking the other party is 'mysterious'. 'Mysterious', however, would definitely be not-so-mysterious after all; because all of us are innately curious bastards. We will try means and ways, even tactical approaches that deem fit the situation; just to pry more out of the other party we so much can't get enough of.

So supposing in a married couple, we actually see two people not knowing everything about each other, is that weird? Do they genuinely not want to know everything about the person they are married to, or do they have something to hide? Does not knowing everything about the person you are married to creates the 'mysterious' mood; and actually enables the air of curiousity to last, hopefully forever? I have heard of a couple who have been married for almost thirty years but still bathe and change separately. According to his wife, this creates the mysterious mood between them two, she is enable to give him surprises in the wardrobe area, and her husband cannot get enough of her even after three decades.

However, when one stresses the importance of honesty in a relationship, is it allowed when they hide certain things from each other? would that be called cheating? Or is this just called being selfish? Selfish that you just want to know everything about your partner to satisfy your own curiousity, but turn evasive and moody when asked about your own past and skeletons in the closet? When the relationship eventually sexual relationship, some may find it offensive that they can sacrifice their body to give pleasures that are desired, but still be shunned from questions they ask. Are certain things really off-limits? Is there always a taboo in everyone's life that is untouchable?

I find it intriguing how people can be really very close, but still keep certain things to themselves and away from those they claim are dear to the heart. So why do we do this? Is this how we are trained; to keep ourselves from feeling naked and to protect ourselves from riducule? I was wondering if Eve actually lied to Adam until I remembered she did eventually keep him away from her after consuming the forbidden fruit. Oh well. I really do suppose that our bff is really actually ourselves, and only we know what we have to hide, and flaunt.

those good old days.!

am at work now. *ssshhhhhh..!* so obviously not supposed to be blogging man. such a dull day at work. bah.!

stupid IMF is causing so much trouble at work. even when it hasn't started yet. double bah.!

sian. wonder who will wanna go suntec during the imf period when it's so darn troublesome..

oh hungry, Hungry, HUNGRY.!

was just reminiscing about the good old days in school. *dreamy* and realised that i kinda miss school life. not school. not school work. school life. hey, there's a dfference ok.

to me, school life basically means time spent together hanging out with your school friends. haha. note the word school.. not from school not counted. hah!

primary/secondary/brief jc life aside, i miss waiting for beanie to get off class at the umbrella area; going to town to shop-till-we-drop with hui; slacking in the library with ah min drinking big cups of bubble tea; talking bout everything under-the-sun with bai and many, many, many, other good times we shared.

miss miss miss miss super-duper-ultra miss those good old days.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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these days am very much left alone with my thoughts. have alot of time to myself, that's why. so lonely. =[

friends have left to go perth to further their studies. life now is a mundane cycle which rotates around work, and the tv box. how pathetic.

therefore, have nothing to blog about now. don't think anyone would like to hear my not-too-interesting information about work, or the tv box.

bah. wat a boring life i lead.

p.s. peeps who actually read my blog, please read my previous blog entry and click on the link!!! (or here.) spent much time on it, therefore die die oso must see!!

L.O.V.E.!

yippee.! i lurve mahjong!! hehe

yesterday played at jem's n edwin's place.. made too much noise. hah. *embarrassed*

last week at hui's with dolly n friend. hui's brother and aunt are good players man.. and they always sit at my 'shang jiao' then never give me anything to eat.. sad. =[ but damn fun. woohoo.! lurrrvvveeeee..!

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was driving on the road on friday and this bloody red nissan horned me. tmd. he was behind me and we were at this small road, waiting to turn left. bloody hell.. i couldn't even make a turn cos of the traffic and yet he still honked his horn. bastard sia. #$%^&*#$%^&#$%^

hate this kind of drivers.. grrrrrr. *angry*

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ceci is gonna start school soon.. so fast..!!! she went ninto pioneer.. so sian. 14 points still go pioneer.. wasted man.. smmore that school's no fun at all. went there for first three months. sucked. (ok la, so it didn't exactly sucked big time, but it wasn't all that great..)

promised to buy a bag for her.. wonder what kind of bag will she choose.. hmmmm. hope it isn't too expensive.! =/

gonna go bugis later to get her stuff.. and she needs to dye her hair black again.. haha!!

hope i can get myself smthing nice as well.. think i've been overspending.. got myself a zara top that, according to my sister, looks like 25 bucks but actually cost me $75. ex.. but me likey.! =]

yay.!! shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong, shopping + mahjong.!!!!!!!

yippee.!! =]

p.s. this is published on march 05.. just a draft which i edited.. extensively. hehe.!

wishlist II

UPDATED!!!

i have been told by many that my wishlist is depressing, and that no-one will get me anything cos it's too over. as in over-the-budget. so i have decided to update it and add more choices for you guys. =]

baobs told me to add something cheap like hershey's chocolate bar.. so am gonna do that!

now for the highly-anticipated UPDATED wishlist of mine! *drumrolls*

1. SAMSUNG D600C w/bluetooth printer

2. entire SK II LXP Skincare Range (there are 2 pages!! =/ look through all! )

3. Creme de La Mer (middle size. dunno how many ml)

4. Casio Exilim EX-600 w/1GB mmc (i think the orange one is nice.. silver too.. hmm.)

5. bling, bling and more bling from lee hwa, citigems or swarovski!! (this, this, this, or this looks pretty good.. me likey..!)

6. Muchas earring

7. i quite like the Anna Sui cosmetic range

8. dior stuff.. wallets, pouches, etc..

9. perfume (secret wish pls!) + 1 hershey's chocolate bar (see baobs!! i've added the chocolate bar!!)

number nine is perfume AND chocolate.. it comes together.. so there!! hehe!

=]

today i wanted to buy a new hp.. the d600c.. but got no stock le.. wth. the worst is they only have stock for without contract.. super wth. can't have new hp.. sad.. =[

bought this cute 'zhao(1) cai(2) mao(1)' pouch today.. super cute..!! me likey!! =] now can put all my barang barang inside.. =]

just learnt that i could upload pics via blogger.. haha so suaku.. ignore the fax machine pls. the pouch is uber cute rite!! the red oval thing is supposed to be the japanese god which brings good luck.. and the small cat is just that i found it cute so i bought it and hung it with the pouch.. cute!!

yesterday went to swarovski.. saw quite afew necklaces and bracelets that i like.. ask my uncle to buy for me.. hahaha! (swarovski webbie is down so cannot put up the pics)

also got my first birthday present from mum yesterday.. yippee yay!! love her to bits.! she bought me a heart-shaped pendant + necklace.. hhehehee!! super duper likey!!!!!

none of the pics i took of the necklace are nice, and i dun wanna discredit the necklace so never put up.. but i fund a very similar pendant from tiffany & co.. it's the pendant minus the elaborate necklace and the diamond-studded clasp.. nice???

am pleased. =]

while listening to a (quite) boring CD

i'm at the new place now, on my 'bed', which is in fact, merely a queen-sized mattress without the bed frame. listening to a quite boring cd by the infamous guo meimei 'wo ai ni, ai zhe ni, jiu xiang lao shu ai da mi..' -_-"

recently, weekends are usually spent at our new house. i'd like to call it our weekend retreat, but somehow the trouble gone through to reach our retreat seems to contradict the cheeriness and relax-iness associated with the words 'weekend retreat'. isn't it supposed to make you think of the nice palm trees, clear blue waters and sunny weather?

there are limited things to do at the new place. like all chalets (i like to think of it as our personal chalet), there is only one television set, no wireless connection and it's an inaccessible place. thank god my mum for the broadband.

i usually live through the weekend eating, swimming, or catching up on some reading. more often than not, though, there is a limit to how long one can do these things for.

therefore we bought a mahjong table, and weekends now are always full of mahjong, mahjong and more mahjong!! Yippee!!

if you guys would like to play mahjong during the weekends, come over and find me..!!!!

have to go now. time for another mahjong session.!

wishlist!

i really really didn't want to write this post.

i'm being forced by a certain fair-skinned friend of mine, i swear!

hehe.!

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now for the highly-anticipated wishlist of mine! *drumrolls*

1. SAMSUNG D600C w/bluetooth printer

2. entire SK II LXP Skincare Range (there are 2 pages!! =/ look through all! )

3. Creme de La Mer (middle size. dunno how many ml)

4. Casio Exilim EX-600 w/1GB mmc (i think the orange one is nice.. silver too.. hmm.)

5. bling, bling and more bling from lee hwa, citigems or swarovski!!

6. Muchas earring

i really cannot think of anything else le.. but as lindsey says, i'm materialistic. (wth!!!) so i will like any branded and bling stuff... :(

but thinking abt it, i dun think i'll reject anything that's dior or lv. (quite like the dior jewelry..)wahaha!

(chinese) new year resolutions

i think it's kinda late for my resolutions, but i suppose i can go according to the lunar new year... so, um, ya. heh.

1. i want to save as much money as possible!!

2. i vow to be nicer to all my friends. (non-friends: too bad.!! muahaha!)

actually, at this point i can't really think of any more resolutions... hmmmm.

3. i will try to brush up on my english.

4. i want to win every mahjong game i play!!!!

ok. that's it.

muahahahahaha.

m o n e y ?

when all your friends are either working or studying, having holidays are not so fun after all.

that's when work starts getting more and more apealing.

that and the fact that you get paid.

money leh.

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after starting work and getting busy yourself, nothing seems fun anymore.

of course, the thought of money still make you slog your way through the one-foot high stack of files.

but your mind starts wandering and you find yourself wondering why you are doing whatever you're doing. (include shite job description.)

but, hey, money leh.. money..

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moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney!

what a love-hate relationship.

haiz.

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please do not tell me that you have a wonderful job and you love it because there's many challenges and interesting things to do every single day.

you bitch.

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m e , m y s e l f , a n d , i ?

something interesting i saw from LMD's post.

decided to do it cos'..

reason #1. am bored.

reason #2. haven't been blogging for a long time.

7 things that scare me:

1. horror movies

2. ghost stories

3. losing a loved one

4. not being able to love anybody

5. not being loved by anybody

6. being ugly

7. not having good friends around

7 things i like most:

1. singing

2. pretty objects (i say pretty objects cos' i love stuff that are pink, fluffy, princess-y, dreamy.. you get the picture.)

3. feeling good about myself

4. listen to genuine praises (about myself, of course.)

5. being able to play difficult piano pieces the piano

6. dreaming

7. being a drama-mama

7 random facts about me:

1. i loved the 2 weeks spent in cambodia helping the orphanage

2. i once hid in a corner and cried when my teacher gave me a C+ for my art piece in secondary school

3. i am a natural liar

4. i have a flair for arts and languages as opposed to the math and sciences

5. i find it very difficult to tell a person my innermost feelings, thoughts, and troubles (i write them down in a diary)

6. during my adolescence period, i felt miserable most of the time

7. i am a girly girl at heart *flutters long lashes* *giggles*

7 things i plan to do before i die:

1. be a singer

2. be an actress

3. travel around the world

4. find someone who will treat me like his princess

5. get married

6. get rich

7. or i can always get married to someone rich (hah!)

7 things i can do:

1. i can drive

2. i can sing

3. i can play the piano

4. i can bake

5. i can swim

6. i can cry as and when i like

7. i can stay at home the entire day without coming online for 5 consecutive days

7 things i cannot do:

1. i cannot play the guitar

2. i cannot see properly without my glasses and contact lens

3. i cannot seem to like studying

4. i cannot dance

5. i cannot seem to say comforting words to people when they are sad

6. i cannot seem to save money

7. i cannot play basketball (and volleyball) without the ball hitting me

7 things i say the most:

1. huh?

2. err..

3. haha!

4. rolls eyes!

5. simi dai?

6. watever~

7. hmmm..

h o l i d a y s !

haven't been blogging for quite a while, now.

am afraid i'll get my cute perky lil' butt hauled up to court.

we don't want any of that now, do we?

i've kept many many drafts, though.

none of which i have posted up, obviously.

duh.

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holidays are getting to be quite a bore.

am forever torn between finding a job, earning some keeps, and slacking.

somehow the idea of slacking seems to appear more appealing than (ugh!) work.

what's more, i'm supposedly still having exams. (to my mum, that is.)

hah! thankfully, bai and gang have finished their exams as of today.

entertainment is on the way!

woohoo!!

isetan's private sale is around the corner as well.

double yay!!

oh.

did i mention how i'm enjoying my holidays?

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h a r s h !

this is my second post of the day.

it's just a passing thought that i felt needed to be captured.

as most (updated) people would know, ah hao has been given a death sentence for the death of huang na.

yes, she died an early death. and yes, she died a horrible death.

and now, he has been sentenced to death.

some may think that he got what he deserved. but please allow me to disagree, for i feel that the sentence passed on him is too harsh.

yes, he did cause the death of a little girl, whether intentionally or otherwise. but i suppose everyone forgot something else. something important.

he gave himself up to the police.

without him, her death would be a mystery. the police might never ever catch him. he was already in Malaysia, and could just have escaped to god-knows-where.

but he chose to turn himself in to the police, to accept judiciary punishment.

i say, give him some credit.

the sentence passed on him is a death sentence. he would have to be hanged. that would be the end of his life, and his parents, wife and kid would never see him again.

he turned himself in to the police, and yet not an ounce of leniency was shown to him.

which offender will turn themselves in to the police in the future, when they know that the law would not take their act of self-repentence into consideration?

i know i would never.

what for?

oso have to die what.

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e x p l o d e !

i woke up today with a pounding head which threatened to explode any minute. (i wanted to bang against the wall and faint; so as not to feel the constant poundings.)

it still hurts.

my throat hurts when i swallow. (saliva, of course. when i swallow drinks and food it isn't all that painful, though.)

if feels like someone is pinching it, refusing to let it go.

i can still sing and hit the high notes though. (incidentally, i feel that i can sing very well, unlike my sister who croaks and loves to sing. =/ )

weird. (i'm a freak.)

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my (other) sister is going to watch dimsum doillies. (without me, by the way.)

i'm very upset. (and that freak of a headache just would not go away.)

i'm supposed to go to town later.

the thought of going to lively, bustling shopping centres brighten me slightly. (though the thought of crowded streets and shops, full of smelly people, puts me off.)

and the headache is still there. (argh!)

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i wonder if i should include (swear) words into my posts. (it's not very family friendly though.)

always wanted to, cause it's more me. (however, it looks really ugly, written/typed out.)

bleah. (head's still pounding, dammit!)

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i just remembered something.

he saw the previous post. (well, part of it anyway.)

not S, my boyfriend. ("we were both shy sia!")

i quickly moved the cursor to close the window. ("who's that guy?!")

the computer lagged. ("wah! what are you trying to hide from me?!")

damn.

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note to readers: author's head exploded. this is her sister here, who helped her press the 'publish post' button while cleaning up the bits of brain from the laptop.

j a c k p o t !

have been meaning to blog..

really.

was just too busy with the law report..

(thinking about it now makes me wanna gag. bleah.)

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i read an article on the straits times yesterday.

there was this woman who won the jackpot.

big deal, some may say.

winning the equivalant of about SGD$234 million, i would definitely say it's a damn big deal.

$234 million leh!!!!!

million ok!!! not dollars!!

just gimme 10%!!

my sister and i were commenting on the jackpot thingy;

how we don't feel so bad when it's someone poor who won, instead of some already-super-rich person.

(she has 6 kids and is quite poor, btw.)

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heh.

how come this sort of thing don't happen to me huh?

hmmmmmmm.

imagine.

$200 million in your account..

mmmmmm...

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note to readers: at this point, author was drooling waay too much about how to spend $200 milllion, the keyboards got flooded (with that much drool, it was hard not to flood it) ; and had to press "publish post" to avoid loss of post.

s o b z .

i had to tear myself away from the book for days cos of common test.

i finally finished it today.

(or yesterday, to be more precise; since it's tecnically a new day now.)

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i'm very upset.

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i had tears brimming in my eyes and they threatened to fall.

i think i would've bawled like a baby if it were not for the fact that i was not, alone.

so sad..!!!!!

*sobz*

how can she make Dumbledore die?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!!!

he got murdered, no less.

(by whom, i think i should not say; in case anyone is reading the book now..)

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i wonder if he would still be able to talk in portraits.

but i suppose not.

don't think that will happen..

hmmmmm.

avada kedavra....

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note from author: sorry ah.. nothing to write about now cos im basically just feeling sad that rowling made dumbledore die. just thinking about it makes me... hmpf. =[

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