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haha! in school now, oh gawd. this is how bored i am.

i realised that staying stagnant for too long really takes all form of motivation out. am so not motivated to do my dissertation. damn.

i have a creative suite for sale!!! unopened and unused!!!! anyone wants?? for sale around 107sgd.

speaking of selling stuff on this blog, i am damn freaking pissed. ordered slippers A YEAR AGO from this seller and till now she is not sending me my stuff. pissed.

makes me mad.

i flipped through my mum's copy of wanbao just now, and i saw a piece of news which made me rather disgusted.

i assume by now, everyone in singapore should know that the phrase '老牛吃嫩草' is talking about the local compere; now labeled as the 'old bull'. for those who do not understand chinese, '老牛吃嫩草' simply means an older person (usually a male) who like to date/be with a much younger partner.

according to the article, the old bull was very much married to his wife when he started an affair with his much younger PA. before the scandal/affair was exposed, he apparently lied to his wife that he was moving out temporarily to concentrate on his career. however before he left, he did leave with his wife an agreement which promised to take care of all her expenses, as well as the household.

she apparently thought he was trying to make her feel more secured, and the main reason behind it was because he really loved her so much. my goodness. imagine how she felt when she learnt of his (very publicized) affair. according to my mum, he retorted in defense of his affair that the bull has worked very hard in life, so what is wrong with eating tender grass. *rolls eyes*

anyway, apparently he promised his wife that he will pay for her credit card bills, cable tv bill, (wait lemme go get the papers) insurance fee, handphone/homephone bills, housing loan repayment, utilities bills, misc/maintenance fee, and on top of that a monthly allowance of 5k.

this issue actually died down for some time already, until very recently about afew days back. he apparently hasn't given his soon-to-be ex-wife her 5k alimony for quite a few months, and that was how the whole saga came about again. hah! loser.

anyway she apparently went to his friend's salon to have her hair done, and left the bill (in which she wrote that he had not given her alimony for afew months thus he will be paying for her haircut) for him to pay. hahaha!! not only his friends, even his friend's employees knew about it!!! super lose face!!!

his defense was that he really had no money to give her, and that he could barely fork out 2k per month to give to her, much less the promised 5k. he further complained about his (hefty) monthly expenses, and about the rental of a place to stay. something he left out was his newly purchased car (which SHE told the reporters), and get this, he doesn't even have a driving license!!!

ANYWAY. the point of this post is to tell everyone how disgusted i was, and still am, at such fuckers. in the beginning, he makes it all nice and rosy and appears gentlemanly, to make her agree to a divorce. after she agrees, he bails out on past promises and act poor. FUCK OFF!!!

got no license but go and buy car for fuck?? that's for the filthy rich to do!!! rich people buy cars and place it at home for pleasure viewing, not the poor!! so if he can do that, it must mean he is financially strong.

plus, who can he blame if he has to leave his own home to rent a place to stay??? nobody asked him to cheat on his wife. nobody forces a bull to eat grass lor. *rolls eyes* everyone has to be answerable for their actions, and consequences for each action taken may be far more severe than imaginable. this applies to almost anything, and very much so for fuckers like him.

damn disgusting can?!?!?!?!?! as disgusting as sg's 'modern monk'. argh! GROSS GROSS GROSS GROSS GROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

colours of life.

i think people do change when they grow up. i have often brought myself back to yesteryears these days... and looking back, i realised that i was really quite naive. haha

eons ago when i was much, much younger; i used to see all things in black and white, refusing to believe in the grey. good people only do good deeds, bad people are those who are never kind to anyone... a + b must be = c... when we meet with situation X, we will do only Y... such idealistic thoughts we have when we were young, huh.

i wonder when did i stop believing in pure black and white, and realised that the world is full of mainly grey... 1 + 2 is no longer 3 but overcrowding, and there will always be the 'it depends' factor.

i wonder if growing up does this to people. adding in the greys... suddenly had the colours matched in my head... black, white, grey, and blue. which probably pretty much explains my everyday blues...

shit. i have no idea what i was blogging about.

insomnia

yet another sleepless night.

tried to sleep around 2:30am, tossed and turned and finally slept around 3plus.. woke up at around 4plus and was restless the entire time. which kinda explains why i'm awake before 7am, when my class starts at 9am.

bah!!!!!!

many weird dreams and scenarios floating around in my mind.. i wonder if this is my muse giving me creativity juices. hahahaha! doubt it.

i feel stretched to a certain limits when faced with school work. nothing seems to be going right, and i can't seem to churn out the required number of words for assignments. to some, this may seem normal.. but it says something huh, when i always exceed the maximum allocated word count.

i wonder if it's a mental block, hopefully temporary; or if it's more of a burn-out. unlike my many other fortunate fellow-schoolmates, i am not at liberty to do badly in my studies. *sigh* this is very much what we call in chinese, "tong(2) ren(2) bu(4) tong(2) ming(4)".

long weekend coming up very very soon... national day for singapore. to quote the chinese radio dj, "this is a very special year as it is Singapore's 44th birthday". hahahahahahah!

every year also special what!! next year it's going to be special as it is the nation's 45th birthday! lame ley.... when i hear someone say an occasion is very special, i'm anticipating the really special part. not such lame stuff.. such bs.

after the long weekend is assignment submission day. fark. i can't seem to type anything for the assignment.

and i prolly will end up sleeping in class later. omg.

I SIMPLY LUURRRVVEEE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(*rolls eyes*)

saddening

people do change, don't they? it's sometimes quite sad to know that certain changes happen to people in a fairly short while... :(

but when i have this feeling that someone has changed, i will ask myself if I am the one that has changed and thus this feeling. this time, i am very sure that it is not me who has changed.

someone who used to be important and close, someone who shares thoughts and feelings.. someone whom i could rely on, someone who thought i was important too.

i forgot when it started... forgot when my thoughts, feelings, comments, and opinions did not matter anymore...

i feel... alone, somewhat. it's a sense of emptiness. a saddening feeling. i feel like someone who used to be able to hold a big crystal ball in her hands, but the ball broke; leaving me to hold on to whatever that's left...

there is more than one wall between us.. such an arduous task, even for the both of us.

such a sad thing to have happened........................ :(

beware! climbers!

recent news got me to thinking about what an author used to term as 'climbers'. i am one who is rather disgusted by such people.

for those who had never read 'first wives club' by olivia goldsmith, the term 'climbers' were used to describe those who latch themselves on people of higher status and climb up the social ladder, so to speak.

recently there was an acquaintance whom dumped her boyfriend of several years to be with an older, much richer 'colleague'. what is it with girls nowadays? this is not a question of love, it is a question of material needs. this i know, for they have only known each other for less than 3 months.

and, sad to say, this is not the only story i have heard by far.

this, which led me to thinking; is this world becoming too materialistic? press news and entertainment have shifted focus to the rich and the wealthy; thus making an impression on young women that whatever your salary might be, a LV bag on your arm is a mere basic necessity.

i think i am completely lucky that my guy is although cute, has zero financial ability to speak of. hahaha.

Is there ever really nothing to hide?

Have you ever met a person who says their conscience is clear? the sentence that often accompanies this would be 'I have nothing to hide'. But is there? Isn't there always a thing or a habit that we are ashamed of and try to hide it from prying eyes? Can there really be a person who says they have nothing to hide and then actually do it? But then again, how would we know?

It is not uncommon to not know everything about the person you are with when the relationship is just beginning to blossom. There is an air of excitement that rapidly builds up the connection between two people when thinking the other party is 'mysterious'. 'Mysterious', however, would definitely be not-so-mysterious after all; because all of us are innately curious bastards. We will try means and ways, even tactical approaches that deem fit the situation; just to pry more out of the other party we so much can't get enough of.

So supposing in a married couple, we actually see two people not knowing everything about each other, is that weird? Do they genuinely not want to know everything about the person they are married to, or do they have something to hide? Does not knowing everything about the person you are married to creates the 'mysterious' mood; and actually enables the air of curiousity to last, hopefully forever? I have heard of a couple who have been married for almost thirty years but still bathe and change separately. According to his wife, this creates the mysterious mood between them two, she is enable to give him surprises in the wardrobe area, and her husband cannot get enough of her even after three decades.

However, when one stresses the importance of honesty in a relationship, is it allowed when they hide certain things from each other? would that be called cheating? Or is this just called being selfish? Selfish that you just want to know everything about your partner to satisfy your own curiousity, but turn evasive and moody when asked about your own past and skeletons in the closet? When the relationship eventually sexual relationship, some may find it offensive that they can sacrifice their body to give pleasures that are desired, but still be shunned from questions they ask. Are certain things really off-limits? Is there always a taboo in everyone's life that is untouchable?

I find it intriguing how people can be really very close, but still keep certain things to themselves and away from those they claim are dear to the heart. So why do we do this? Is this how we are trained; to keep ourselves from feeling naked and to protect ourselves from riducule? I was wondering if Eve actually lied to Adam until I remembered she did eventually keep him away from her after consuming the forbidden fruit. Oh well. I really do suppose that our bff is really actually ourselves, and only we know what we have to hide, and flaunt.

e v o l v e d ?

it is apparent that women are evolving.

we have come a long way, from being the woman behind our man, the submissive supporting actress in the relationship; to the all-new power woman, superwoman.

we no longer have to depend on a man for our survival, we can earn our keeps; and do just as well, if not better, than the men.

as our role evolve and change, we assume men's do as well.

but are they actually evolving?

is there really such a thing as the new man?

do men know that we no longer are the docile species they once knew?

do they really get it?

if they do, then why do some men still insist on chauvinism?

why do they still insist on being the superior gender, taking women for granted?

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i once heard something very true said in the sex and the city series.

"there are hundreds upon hundreds of articles written about the new man.

but does this new man really exist?

perhaps he is the old man, renamed and re-packaged, by some clever PR woman."

how aptly expressed.

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so, do such men exist?

can someone tell me?

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h a r s h !

this is my second post of the day.

it's just a passing thought that i felt needed to be captured.

as most (updated) people would know, ah hao has been given a death sentence for the death of huang na.

yes, she died an early death. and yes, she died a horrible death.

and now, he has been sentenced to death.

some may think that he got what he deserved. but please allow me to disagree, for i feel that the sentence passed on him is too harsh.

yes, he did cause the death of a little girl, whether intentionally or otherwise. but i suppose everyone forgot something else. something important.

he gave himself up to the police.

without him, her death would be a mystery. the police might never ever catch him. he was already in Malaysia, and could just have escaped to god-knows-where.

but he chose to turn himself in to the police, to accept judiciary punishment.

i say, give him some credit.

the sentence passed on him is a death sentence. he would have to be hanged. that would be the end of his life, and his parents, wife and kid would never see him again.

he turned himself in to the police, and yet not an ounce of leniency was shown to him.

which offender will turn themselves in to the police in the future, when they know that the law would not take their act of self-repentence into consideration?

i know i would never.

what for?

oso have to die what.

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e x p l o d e !

i woke up today with a pounding head which threatened to explode any minute. (i wanted to bang against the wall and faint; so as not to feel the constant poundings.)

it still hurts.

my throat hurts when i swallow. (saliva, of course. when i swallow drinks and food it isn't all that painful, though.)

if feels like someone is pinching it, refusing to let it go.

i can still sing and hit the high notes though. (incidentally, i feel that i can sing very well, unlike my sister who croaks and loves to sing. =/ )

weird. (i'm a freak.)

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my (other) sister is going to watch dimsum doillies. (without me, by the way.)

i'm very upset. (and that freak of a headache just would not go away.)

i'm supposed to go to town later.

the thought of going to lively, bustling shopping centres brighten me slightly. (though the thought of crowded streets and shops, full of smelly people, puts me off.)

and the headache is still there. (argh!)

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i wonder if i should include (swear) words into my posts. (it's not very family friendly though.)

always wanted to, cause it's more me. (however, it looks really ugly, written/typed out.)

bleah. (head's still pounding, dammit!)

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i just remembered something.

he saw the previous post. (well, part of it anyway.)

not S, my boyfriend. ("we were both shy sia!")

i quickly moved the cursor to close the window. ("who's that guy?!")

the computer lagged. ("wah! what are you trying to hide from me?!")

damn.

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note to readers: author's head exploded. this is her sister here, who helped her press the 'publish post' button while cleaning up the bits of brain from the laptop.

p l a y !

lovely sun, warm smooth sand, heaps of fishes and the clear, blue ocean!

that's what you'll get if you go to redang.

at least that was what i experienced.

simply luuurrrrvveeellyyyy!

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had a great time there..

am planning to go again.

so..

redang anyone?

;]

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anyway.

i was just thinking how i admire people who actually put their innermost feelings, as well as intimate happenings around them, all in their blog.

as hard as i want to, i just can't.

i just can't accept the fact that someone who doesn't know me at all, is able to read my private thoughts, and share my innermost feelings.

i also can't accept the fact that people who do know me, know so much about me.

the next time they see me, they are looking as if they can see right through my soul.

i will feel..

naked.

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i guess that's why even though i have a blog, i keep a diary as well.

suppose there are some things too intimate to share.

and don't think it the naughty way.

heh.

;]

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r a m b l i n g s .

haven't been online for a long time now.

that's the reason why this blog can be sent to the museum soon.

seriously dunno wad to blog about.

wonder who reads my blog.

will you guys leave your names?

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what is the most important thing in life?

often wonder to myself.

is it money?

is it love?

is it family?

is it friends?

or is it a career? what is the most important thing in your lives?

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dunno if it sounds materialistic, but i have expensive taste, and much money is needed to, err, support the unique things that i would like to have.

but then again, who doesn't like pretty things and have the money to be able to buy them, right?

(argh. dunno wad am talking abt.)

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having a whirlwind of thoughts in my head now.

just rambling away here.

think am a little crazy nowadays.

bleah.

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wonder if i should close this blog.

hmmm.

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l o v e ?

marriage, cohabitation, promiscuities?

which are the choices people are making nowadays?

and what choice will you make?

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the less desirable ones first.

really can't decide which i deplore more; cohabitation or promiscuities.

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promiscuities.

need we say more?

good social life, different sexual partners, freedom and unrestricted life.

but.

emotionally lonely and empty (maybe).

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cohabitation?

some might think cohabitation is good because it gives a good feel of what marriage life is about.

suppose it depends and varies for individuals.

it's nothing taxing on the guy and he doesn't lose out much; but what about the woman?

if the 'pre-marriage plan' (as some like to call it) doesn't work out, then what?

still feel that it's definitely not exactly the same if married.

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marriage.

hmmm.

would have to say marriage is probably to tie two people down; to give each other assurance that they have responsibility for each other and their future life together.

most sane people won't give birth to, like, five kids, for a man whom she is not married to.

he does not have responsibility to look after her and the kids.

if he finds another who is more attractive, then what will happen to the woman?

therefore, am being very practical and down-to-earth, and somewhat cruel (to my own world of fantasies and sugar-coated marshmallows); to say that the marriage certificate is indeed for the sake of assurance.

(not to forget also to threaten the man with legal lawsuit should the marriage fail).

well, suppose that all truth hurts.

(it's true! my world of fantasies filled with rainbows and cotton candy floss is now trying to erase that piece of hard news by painting it over with chocolate paint.. mmm..yummy..!)

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so i can always say (and think) that marriage is about faith and growing old together.

oh, and there's always the good old thing that everyone needs.

love.

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H a p p i l y E v e r A f t e r ?

been egged to blog more.

suppose so, else blog would be sent to museum soon.

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why are relationships so complex and difficult to understand?

thought that every (stable) relationship should be full of love, and will end up with a happily ever after..

did fairytales lie when they told about endless happily-ever-afters?

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is it so hard to find someone you love, and have that person love you back?

is it that in every relationship, things will change and will not be like what they were in the past?

why is it that a relationship will get stagnant after some time, or have only one party maintaining the relationship?

when two very good friends get together and then break up, why is it that sometimes they don't remain friends anymore?

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well, these things aren't happening to me, obviously.

just some thoughts that ran through my mind.

but it's really true that relationships get stagnant after awhile, don't they?

used to think that couple life was boring because there's not much to do in singapore but eat, watch movies, and eat (sommemore).

but then again, suppose that it takes effort to inject life and spice up the relationship.

like going on short trips, going to pulau ubin to cycle, go swimming together, or just hanging out under the canopy of stars.

hmmmm.

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what should we really be looking out for in a partner at our age?

looks, age difference, maturity level, financial standings, a forseeable future together?

really don't know.

and, does it really matter?

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never thought of relationships as that complicating.

always thought it was a simple case of two people loving each other.

of course, the happily ever after never hurts.

;]

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t r u s t .

trust.

a mere 5-letter word, but oh-so-very important in our very lives.

like any other matters and values, trust varies from different individuals.

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in any relationship, i believe that the basis have to be built on trust.

can you ever get into a relationship with someone you don't even trust?

no trust, no love.

you think?

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in friendships as well.

you will have to trust your very best friend, to be able tell him or her your deepest, darkest secrets, won't you?

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i also believe that trust is earned.

even if it is granted to you no strings attached, you will have to prove worthy of the trust given.

once breached, it's pretty hard to have the person trust and look at you the same way ever, won't it?

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i won't say the same for everyone.

every individual is entitled to his/her own opinion and belief.

for some, trust is easily earned, and can also be built on a rocky foundation.

for others, trust is the solid foundation that the relationship is built on.

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someone once told me (something like that):

trust is like a shattered mirror; no matter how hard you try to fix it back, cracks will still be evident.

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p a s s e d ?

have you ever had the feeling of being 'passed' around? or do you know of people who are sort of being 'passed' around? what do i mean by 'passed' around? ------------------------------------------------------------ hmmm. girl has a bf, AAA, now. she knows all his friends. after she breaks up with AAA, she goes with BBB, who happens to be AAA's friend, and also liked her for quite some time. the cycle continues until she 'finishes' every of AAA's friend. it's a high possibility that she might end up permanently with one of them. ------------------------------------------------------------ how can some girls do that, i wonder. everytime you go out with you boyfriend and his friends, you inevitably meet an ex of yours. isn't it awkward? i always thought it would be awkward. can you imagine if in the above scenario, at the table, every single one of them was your boyfriend once, and they all know what you're like, how you kiss and all. eeew. *shudders at thought* ------------------------------------------------------------ also, there are some cases when guy like girl, but he knows his good friend likes her as well. therefore, he tries to 'give her up' to him, knowing fully well that the girl will not like his friend and sort of likes him. well, in this cases, i daresay that guys are in the wrong. a relationship is about 2 people, isn't it? and girls are not presents meant to be passed around. ------------------------------------------------------------ and, speaking of guys. how come they always seem to have the same taste and like the same girls? if supposedly his best friend has a pretty girlfriend, and the moment he saw her, he liked her as well. it's true he is not at fault to like her when he saw her, supposedly not knowing she is his friend's girlfriend at that time, of course. but after knowing she is attached to your good friend and yet still liking her is something wrong, isn't it? isn't this lusting after your best friend's girlfriend, and something that should not ought to be thought of, much less done. hmmmmmmm. what do you think? can someone tell me? ------------------------------------------------------------

m o r e ! c o m m e n t s .

excerpt from min's tagboard: Libin: Nowaday girls too choosy....and dunno wat they looking for. Girls are Complex and Complicated... reego: haha.. not really. thats wat we guys think.. some gals are just looking for something very simple. yet often. we found it complicated. ya. Libin: Haha maybe ... but i have yet to find a simple girl. Girls's Yes = Yes/No Girls' No = No / Yes ( hard sia testing my patient ) lol reego: well. perhaps all gals seek for simplicity. just that you think they arent. well.. hmmmm. errrr. ok. ------------------------------------------------------------ are we girls choosy? perhaps as compared to before, our expectations become higher. it might also be because we girls happen to be smarter and know our rights. women are no longer merely housewives, and men are no longer the sole bread-winners that women have to depend on. well, basically we're just getting smarter and smarter by the day, and men, well, are still men. ------------------------------------------------------------ men. they have huge egos. and when i say huge, they're HUGE. (they sometimes have trouble squeezing out of the door due to their swollen heads and egos.) they think about sex all the time. ok, fine. 80% of the time. (proven ok.. read in some magazine.) they think that everything leads to sex. (see what i mean?) hah! ------------------------------------------------------------ ok fine. i'm not dissing guys. i like guys. but it's true that they all some of them have big egos and think about sex all most of the time. =/ it's innate. just like how women are innately smart and charming! hah! ------------------------------------------------------------ i think alot of guys are gonna kill me when i post this up, but, what the hell. controversies are good. ;P ------------------------------------------------------------

W o m e n .

women.

women are more financially stable these days.

women are to be treated as equals (with the men).

do these sound familiar?

but.

women are still women.

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they are still suckers when it comes to love.

they still are willing to do anything for the man that they love.

or so they think they love.

they still spill buckets (yes, buckets) of tears over guys.

(sidetrack: i don't mean to say all women, so feme.. err.. independent females out there, no offense ya?)

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No.

i am not trying to say that women still live for guys, of course.

but this was what i felt when i was watching channel 8 @7pm.

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other than the above-mentioned.

women are also perceived by men (who else) to perform certain duties.

women of the past were to be seen and not heard.

women of the past were to be homemakers.

nothing else.

oh. they were also expected to love only one guy, whereas that same guy can love many many girls.

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unfair.

therefore women these days are stronger.

however, the above-mentioned about women of the past still do happen.
don't they?

women are still expected to conform to the customs, norms and beliefs.

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but.

there are also women who are baddies.

as seen on channel 8 (again) @9pm.

they are despicable, cheat and lie and do evil things.

for guys.

hah!

enough said.

women!

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hmmmm.
on another note, though.

i have come across afew emails on women.

not those on their bimboticness (lindsey would say 'bomboticness'), but on their value. oh, and on their tears.

lindsey sent me an email on the value of women once a long time ago.

apparently it dated back 5000 years ago.
(that's long, ain't it? they apparently valued women alot. or do they?)

It says:

"Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears.

The woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on.

Not from his head to be superior, but from the side to be equal.

Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved."

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how true.

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I n f l u e n c e s .

hmmmm.

who are the people in your life who affect you?
as in, influences your thinking, lifestyle and moods?
are there many such people in your life?

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u might ask, what abt my life?
i don't know.
or maybe i do.
hmmmmmmm.

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on thinking.

close friends have a certain influence on my thinking.
i think i do not have to name them.

they will know who they are.

*

my sister has an even greater amount of influence over my thinking.

i remember when i was young, she was like, my role-model.
i even wanted to think like her.
hah.
my ignorance.

no offense there, aight, baobs?
*muacks*

now, i ask her for opinions every now and then, or even try to ask very indirectly what she thinks over certain stuffs.

(ok, sidetrack abit.. i noe there's no such word as stuffS. but i like to use stuffS still. p.s. my sis is very irritated every time i say stuffS.
can hear her snorting at the word stuffS already.)

but sometimes when i do not want her opinion, she tends to give them to me as well.
hah!

i'll always accuse her of trying to impose her taste on me.
(ok lah, i admit. that's more for clothes and such.)

ok. shall not talk abt sister anymore.
this is not about her anyway.

:P

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on lifestyle.

while i was typing this, i was wondering who really had an influence over my lifestyle.

then i realised.
it's my parents.

they influence my lifestyle everytime they decide to move from house to house.

ok, maybe i'm just taking every opportunity i have to shoot them for wanting to shift. again.
bleah.

but they do.
and by shifting house again and again and again, they do it again and again.

my usual routine will no longer be usual, and routines will no longer be routines.
it'll just be something that i'll miss.
badly.

*sniff*

*

ok.
anyway, friends and sis also influences my lifestyle.
or do they?

maybe i shall put it this way.
i have a friend who's practically nocturnal.
(ok lah, it's Cherlyn. =/ )

having a good friend who's nocturnal will turn me into somewhat a 'ye mao zi' (i.e. night cat).
hah!

i also have a friend who recently loves blogging.
(it's Lindsey. you guys should already noe that, right?)

because of her blogging habits, and her constant naggings on me to make blogging my habit;
my lifestyle has therefore included blogging and reading her blogs.

enuff said.
NEXT!

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on moods.

moods.

hmmmm.

moods.

many, many, many people affect my mood.

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my friends affect my mood.

when they're unhappy, i tend to feel sad too.

when they're bored, i will get sian.

when they're mad at me (how seldom is that!!), i feel upset.

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my family affect my mood. (sis included here, ok?)

when they barge into my room during the early hours of the morning, i feel grumpy and irritated the entire day.
when someone bangs the drawers loudly when it's early, they're late for school and i'm still sleeping; i get angry and feel like shouting at that someone.

you know who you are!
hah!

(NB: why is it that i don't actually get up and scold them is because i'm often too tired, so i just make a noise and go back to sleep.)

when my parents scold me, i get very sad. =(
when they comment on my driving, i get mad.
ok, you get the idea.

*

wait.
there's another person who affects my mood.

my darling.

when we have a good time outside, or rather when i spend time with him; be it watching movies, cycling, going out, going shopping or watever;
i feel very happy.

when we talk over the phone for the longest time about nothing at all, i also feel very happy.
hah!

when i see him, definitely i feel happy.

when he feels stressed, i share his feelings.

when we quarrel, i feel sad. :(
i also feel angry.
at myself, mainly.

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hmmmmm.

i guess that's about it.

these are the many people in my life.

who have an influence over me.

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hmmmmmm.

ok.

hands up those who are still keeping up with my awfully long post!
cheerios to you guys!
*muacks*
yay! u're still alive!!

yes, this has indeed been an awfully long post.
don't remember ever blogging this much before.

but till now, i still don't understand the purpose of this blog entry.
maybe it's just something i wanna share with you guys.
=]

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i guess that;

the people who are important to you and you hold dear in your heart are the people who affect you the most, and have the greatest influence in your life.

NB: notice i didn't mention people who weren't worth mentioning.

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hah!
ok.
hope you've enjoyed reading this post.

nevermind if you have not.

i dun really care anyway.

off to study now.
i know, i know!! i should have done this earlier!!!

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'tis official.!

* am reckless driver. =[
** am curt. (i dun give a shyte)
*** am unfriendly. (rolls eyes till they drop out)
**** am a bad influence. (!@#$%^!@#$%^)

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*reckless driver

as of yesterday, almost the whole of my year 1 class+afew who are not from my year 1 class said that as a driver, am reckless.

........
am NOT reckless. why do people keep saying that?!?!?!?!?!
hmpf.

lindsey said she flew when made turn.
like helloo... from holland till queenstown u didn't wear your seatbelt and u wanna complain...

cherlyn and huishi plainly said was reckless. =[

my best friends.. *sobz*

feel hurt.
am NOT reckless.
i hereby stress that again.
AM NOT!

sidetrack: how to change lane when people do not give way to you:
simply place your vehicle as close as you can to their vehicle, and singaporeans being singaporeans, they'll be scared that their precious car (ranging from afew days old to about 15 years)will get scratched, and they'll actually let u pass.

note: please be reminded of not actually touching their car before u practice this stunt.

p.s. at your own risk. am not liable for any damages caused.

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**curt

LINDSEY said am curt.

am actually rolling my eyes till my eyeballs hurt.

and am not going to write about this anymore cos am not giving a shyte about this topic.

so be it.

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***unfriendly

NB: am quite pissed about this topic, so pardon me for my behaviour/language.

certain people have no sense of shame.
expecting me to be friendly to them.

like hello
who the hell are you???

i don't even know you people, therefore am not obliged to smile, say hello AND make small talk to you people.
ain't not my style.

so whatever.
think watever you want.

YA AM UNFRIENDLY.
didn't remember asking for your opinions.
-bleah-

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****bad influence

note: linked to the above-mentioned TWO topic.

LINDSEY said am bad influence to her. said she's becoming curt due to my influence.

am actually rolling my eyes now till they had almost, almost dropped out.

kept bringing it up th whole of yesterday of how i was a bad influence to her (pure) character.

-literally drops out. eyeballs, that is.-

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ok.
conclusions:

TO LINDSEY:
ok lor.
dun 'chan zhu wo' ah.
since am bad driver, curt, a bad influence and unfriendly (can't remember did u say that anot).
hmpf.

To whoever-it-may concern:
bugger-off.
what am doing is none of your business.
how i behave as well.
cos i don't know you guys.
or maybe i just don't want to acknowledge the fact you people exist, ok?

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people who are reading this, please be reminded that any above-mentioned of such events actually happening from me to you and vice-versa are of pure coincidence.

but if you are actually guilty of saying such stuffs, (note: LINDSEY)
then.. whatever. you can take it watever way you like.

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case rest.
am not gonna use this blog to explain behaviour.
just my thoughts.